currently crying a lot because what if i’m just lying to myself this really hurts i can’t even breath

I have the same thing the worst is that yesterday I went out I was horrible , i had fear and my brain was like you are looking women in a weird way , I didn’t got any thoughts , I was looking for a product and then my mind was like you are looking for girls when I’am straight deep down and also went I go out I always look the way I walk and I always ask my family if I walk weirdly but they say I walk fine but I’am like no I walk weirdly when I do not and also yesterday was like a lot of peoples looking me in a weird way I was what would they think of me I really wanted to cry in the store I was like what if peoples thinks I’am bisexual or lesbian what if peoples thinks I’am weird just by walking , it’s so hard for me I love men’s deep down but my ocd is like no you are something else . I also tend to get a lot of false attraction I’am 17 years old and my sexual orientation started in March when a lesbian girl scared me by her phrase that she has the knack to transform straight peoples like that since then I’am struggling . Sorry I said my problems in your post I have no one to talk , I’am crying like you I don’t want to be like this , I understand you we will get well soon I hope you understand me as well I cry a lot as well 😭😭😭😭😭

i hope you feel better in so sorry !

@jusme I’am sad I really want to cry so bad right now I’am in the uk and it’s 2 am in the morning thank you 😭