I feel like if I don’t respond to the thoughts with panic then that makes them true. Like if my brain is like you know you’re a horrible person and I don’t panic then that means it was always true. I’ve been taking medication and I feel less anxious but now I feel just bad.

Just because you imagine for a moment that trees are purple doesn't mean that trees are actually purple, you know what i mean

Let's just pretend for a moment that I believe Spain is located in Asia. Let's say I really really believe this. I refuse to believe any evidence that shows otherwise. What I believe doesn't change the fact that Spain is in Europe. My belief that its in Asia does not change the facts. The same is true for an OCD thought. Just because it feels real, doesn't mean it IS real. The thought itself is not the problem. Everyone has intrusive thoughts. The real problem is the anxiety the thought triggers. You will never going to completely get rid of intrusive thoughts. But through ERP, you can learn how to sit with the anxiety and let it peak and then ebb away. It sounds impossible. But I knownits not because I have experienced that.

legit me. down to the nity gritty. i take medicine and i’m going through the same thing

Through my recovery process I’ve gone through this and am still currently like it. I don’t really ever have anxiety- I might have it out of the blue or really bad for a couple days but over all no anxiety. It makes me feel like a terrible person, like at times I think about it all and just feel low/bad. And some days I just don’t care cause apart of me is just so tired of it all