Ugh, I cant do this, feel like Im attracted to guys now, I was driving back to home and I could just see my future being a bisexual. I felt so disgusted, ugh all I wanted was a cute relationship with a girl but It obviously never happened or was going to happen bc I wasnt truly straight. But now I can just see where my life is headed. I will not be able to get a good career and a normal life, Ill be that creepy awkward gay guy. Im pretty sure Im just depressed bc Ive realized. I dont want these thoughts or feelings but since Im gay these wont go away. I feel so grossed out by myself ugh and I know many gay people feel this way about themselves and are then told to embrace it which is just another proof that this is denial. This is so unfair, I never asked for any of this.

I promise you that your mind is lying to you. OCD is a living hell for me too. I have been out of the cycle and now I have relapsed. You have to do ERP and if it’s severe, get on medication. It has helped me tremendously. We can do this and beat ocd for good!!

It legitimately feels like my identity is changing/has changed or Im worried that this Is my true self thats coming out. I never envisioned myself to be this way. How can I be straight when all I have is urges and gay thoughts in my head 24/7. Its been going on for a year, Im scared that my brain is just different now.

@Imaan7 Are you seeing an ocd therapist? You need to do ERP to recover.

@Anonymous Im not, Im scared erp wont work bc Im just gay or It will just make me realize. Ive already convinced myself of It. Just feels like Im suppressing myself

@Imaan7 ERP works wonders. You need to try it and you will see that all your thoughts were ridiculous.