bellag
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- 3y
whatadooowhatadooo
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- 3y
Listen you sound like you're very young. You will grow, mature, and change so much in the years to come. Your mental health will stabilize. There will be many chances to treat people right. You are not an adult, forgive yourself. I was the same way as a teen and its just not worth it. Focus on school and happy love and supportive friendships, if this relationship is draining you and him so much, leave it and focus on getting better.
bellagbellag
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- 3y
check my last post if you can, it sort of has to do with this. i’m 15, and we’re long distance. my mental health seems terrible for my age, but i’m on medicine now. thank you for your advice and your personal experience! this really does help. my ocd is just attacking me really bad right now. it’s been bad for the last few months/weeks. thank you again for taking the time to reply <3
bellagbellag
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- 3y
actually, it will be pretty hard to find the post i’m talking about, but i can sum it up
whatadooowhatadooo
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- 3y
How did u supposedly hurt him??
bellagbellag
- Date posted
- 3y
mentally, i hurt him.
whatadooowhatadooo
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- 3y
@bellag How tho
bellagbellag
- Date posted
- 3y
@whatadooo basically, i treated other guys how i was supposed to treat him, then i treated him like crap. i got defensive with him when he’d ask for reassurance and i’d just tell him it was an insecurity.
whatadooowhatadooo
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- 3y
@bellag Listen, you're supposed to make in person connections at this age, so it's pretty realistic that you 'cheated' or what not on someone who was long distance. Not right, but normal for this age. However, infidelity is cause for breakup and can't really be fixed. I'm sure you've apologized for the defensiveness or calling him insecure. You didn't ruin him. You're not a monster for this. You made a mistake and now you're holding yourself accountable and that's all we can really ask for in life. You're gona be fine.
bellagbellag
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- 3y
@whatadooo i mean, i dont know if i really cheated, because we were on the phone 24/7. so he was seeing me be nice to these people over my xbox, then later i’d be rude to him. i feel awful. i just don’t know anymore. i need to get my life together. but thank you for that. i am constantly ruminating on my mistakes from the past. they are terrible and they hurt and tbh they aren’t really even huge huge mistakes, LIKE cheating, etc. but i still beat myself up for it because of the severity of it. my ocd took it as a way to attack me for sure. i have apologized multiple times but it will never satisfy it.
whatadooowhatadooo
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- 3y
@bellag No one should have access to your inbox besides you, doll. i wish you the best of luck and I promise this moment is fleeting and these mistakes are behind you and not part of you any longer. Be well.
whatadooowhatadooo
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- 3y
Like what did you say or do that's driving you to this conclusion?
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- 25w
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anonymous737...
- Date posted
- 23w
someone pls answer!
I have ocd, i have crazy intrusive thoughts that make me super uncomfortable, the thing is i understand that ocd goes against your morals and try’s to make you feel like a bad person but how do i avoid pushing people away while trying to treat my ocd.. i love my boyfriend so so much but when i get intrusive thoughts about hurting his feelings or doing something terrible it scares me so bad that i’m scared to be around him because in my head it’s like “why am i even thinking of this if i love him so much” and i know i would never do anything to hurt him but i just feel terrible because he’s an amazing boyfriend and i have all these bad thoughts. :(
your strong
- Date posted
- 22w
Can you relate?
Hi this my first time ever hearing about this app n i downloaded it because lately my ocd been really bad and I feel I can’t have control over it it scares me because I sometimes hurt people around me when I don’t mean to for example my bf everytime something goes well my head just starts spinning in circles with bad thoughts n wanting to ruin stuff with him lowkey I messed up big times bc I let this time my thoughts win me over n took everything off on him without thinking n realizing how bad I had affected him it kills me because everytime I think im jus a weak person bc I always let everything get to me I’m jus so scared because now my head jus tells me your not good enough your gonna lose him this literally jus happens when something positive comes in my head or something good happens always jus wanna ruin it I hate it because I always believe my thoughts instead of him not because I don’t want to but because also of my past n trauma jus fucks it even more from the deep of my heart i believe him but my head reacts differently n lets it out n now am in the situation of knowing I can lose him any minute now even tho am putting my faith in god n trying my hardest to think positive n be better everyday I’m really trying but w ocd it’s so hard n jus get scared n let my thoughts get to me😞 idk what to do anymore
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