I feel like ocd uses my open mindness against me.

Ooh, this is good: if you-you, not just your OCD-you, has an open or creative mind, it’s actually easier to trick yourself/trick your OCD. Yes, OCD can also use it against you by filling all that openness with its jerkiness, but this is good news that you can use to fight it back too! Strength and comfort your way! 💪🏼💜

You have two minds, your obsessional, and your reasonable. Do excersizes along with SSRI treatment (if it helps you) to suppress the obsessional one. Remember; it's completely involuntary. Therefore, it's rlly not ur fault