ITS SO HARD TO NOT SPIRAL RN. When I was 16 and my sister was 12, I was obsessed with lucifer on netflix . It’s Tv-14, and they talk about sex a lot . I don’t think they described the acts much , it’s more of “oh have you had sex “ “wanna have sex?” . Like in dialogue . My sister was like “omg they’re saying the words I dont wanna watch this “. But I’d watch it anyway cuz I liked the show . I figured shed leave if she wanted to. But she’s brain injured . Like I remember once she was getting stung my wasps and she literally just stood there cuz she didn’t realize she should run ? But she’s in the same grade as other grade 6 people and just had an IEP? What if she wasn’t smart enough to leave the room when the show played ? That means I sexually abused her because forcing children to listen to sexual talk is sexual abuse . Ugh . This stream freaks me out .

I mean I kinda want to but I’m also panicking cuz I can’t remember if she said to change the channel or not . I’d also watch it during her turn by being like “he’s the devil it’s a cool show “ or something like that till she’s like “ugh fine!”

@lucy.wilefirr When that happened , I was treating her like a normal girl when I shouldn’t have . She just has difficulty controlling emotions and mimicks whatever I say for approval . But back then it didn’t occur to me that she may not have had a choice

@lucy.wilefirr I’m just really freaked that I abused her !!!!

@lucy.wilefirr ah i see i see- do you know how she feels about those times nowadays? i know that would probably be considered compulsory reassurance seeking but if she isn't really bothered or doesn't even remember you shouldn't be too hard on yourself :o after all, you didn't know how to best treat her at the time.

@draw2cope Idk how she feels about that . She seemed pissed off and annoyed more than anything. I’m really scared it was sexual abuse though. And if it’s sexual abuse then it wouldn’t matter if she remembers it. I looked up criteria for sexual abuse and forcing kids to listen to sexual talk is sexual abuse and I’m really scared that’s what happened

@lucy.wilefirr hmmm well i don't believe so 🤔🤔 i'm a survivor of child sexual abuse myself and there's specific criteria that needs to be met for it to be considered abuse by law

@draw2cope Yeah the article was vague . I have a tendency to interpret stuff to the extreme . Like I remember I read another sexual abuse article saying looking behaviour between children in a 3 year age gap is child sexual abuse . I’m 17 and I remember glancing at a 14 year old and thinking they were attractive (they looked older ) and my brain was like “oh you abused them “

@lucy.wilefirr oh goodness- i wonder how credible that article is because that does not sound grounded in reality at all 😭😭 but i understand the struggle!

@draw2cope I think it was referring to leering at a child but I misunderstood it ? That’s probably what happened here too. Idk . I’m just horrified at the prospect of being a sexual abuser

@lucy.wilefirr ahhh yeah it would make more sense if they meant it in a "peeping Tom" sense, but just observing someone not much younger than you and finding them attractive isn't abusive no :o i totally get where you're coming from though because i struggle with the same theme 😔✊