sadly my thoughts are back again. this time its about me just being attached to my boyfriend, and not in love with him. i could say its a little bit both for me, since i have trauma and i am scared of abandonment, but i could also say i am in love too. i care about him so deeply and he means so much to me. i love everything about him, his soul, his body, his mind, heart, everything. i care about him more than i do care about me. yet my thoughts still make me feel guilty, and they tell me its bad to feel a little attached.

i feel this aswell! u love him.. trust me, u would know the difference between attached and loving someone, but ur both!! which is okay, but work on the attachment thing, learn to be okay without him

i know i am in love but these kinda thoughts are killing me inside and they make my fears seem so real. i am working on erp too so yay to that. and yes on attachment i gotta work because im scared we will break up at some point. i hate ocd and sometimes it really makes me feel bad.

@squishybat it makes me feel bad also:((( ocd tells me i dont love my bf when i know i do, or else i wouldnt be with him. the fact that the thoughts are killing u shows that u do love him

@cs223 i hope we all kick ocd's butt! sometimes it gets hard but i believe we can do it! also same for me, like deep down i know my fears make no sense but tell that to my ocd haha

omg this is me to a T!

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@squishybat i know, it sucks. i’m so sorry that you’re going through this as well, i’m sending you all things positive ❤️

@bellag same goes for you! i believe in you and everybody here on this app! we got this even tho it seems hard!❤❤

@squishybat oh, it’s so hard, but it’s okay to struggle. struggling makes us stronger in the end, we got this! it might take time, but time is all we have <3

@bellag thats true! sending all the love and support!

@squishybat ❤️❤️❤️

I really feel u and i dont know what do to like I really love him but sometimes my brain says no u don’t and then I’m scared that it’s real … I hope it gets better for you :)