i really feel like i like girls and am okay with it :( it's like i don't care anymore. i don't want that. i want my anxiety back. this shit is worse. yet i barely feel any anxiety. then i have those moments of clarity when i know i wouldn't date a girl but they're very brief. it's like i really want to and it's barely causing me to panic :(

"Pure" OCD

Sexual Orientation OCD

Yeah, I think it’s called a backdoor spike, you’re anxious about not being anxious. Just try not to fall back into the circle of compulsions because that’s not going to help you get better. 

i am not even anxious about not being anxious 

I have a question for myself because i really dont want to date a girl because i woudnt feel great and good in that situation but with HOCD it’s telling me thats what i need like ….. 