it feels near impossible for me to be with a man. i never wanted to date before ocd, i used to say stuff like "i want to remain single and travel the world" and i just never really wanted a bf, and now i feel like it's because i am gay and it's not about dating, it's about men. and now whenever i say i eant a bf it feels so blank and like it's really not my intention, and i am just saying that to seem straight :(