Despite going to coed school, I didnt have many female friends or rather any close female friend ever. All my crushes were from far away. So I never got to experience any romantic experience stuff with girls( I dont really remember much tbh) . I was always around boys and men. Another thing is that I could never figure out how to talk to women, I was always curious as to what guys say to them. Because with guys you talk about girls, so what do you say to a girl? Lol This has been my primary obsession (romantic attraction) since the start of ocd( if thats what this is). Reason why I convinced myself 100% that Im gay. Its caused me so much pain. Just wanted to get this off my chest.