how come i still feel certain stuff and get certain thoughts but don't feel any anxiety? like why am i not anxious? it's like i don't care about it anymore. and no it's not the backdoor spike because i don't feel so anxious about not feeling anxious. it just really feels like denial. where's my anxiety towards the thoughts? why don't i spiral bad anymore? is this not ocd? i feel like i want to be with girls and do stuff to girls but i feel no anxiety :( is this denial?? because i just ignore those feelings like i ignore the thoughts. isn't this denial?? there's no way this is ocd. it's been going on for too long this way

anonymoose

Date posted: 4y

How are you defining anxiety? Anxiety can be much more than a fast heartbeat or fear. It can manifest in many different ways, and I think the fact that you’re searching for the anxiety is a manifestation of anxiety itself. It’s like your compulsion is to check that you have anxiety because that means that what you’re feeling is just from OCD and it’s not real. But brains are tricky. Perhaps you know that’s what you’re doing, so the OCD part of your brain is sabotaging you and making you believe that you aren’t anxious. I’m not a professional by any means. I just want you to know that you aren’t alone. I think to myself often “if I’m thinking this, then it must be true.” But thoughts are just thoughts. You should really think about talking to a counselor if you haven’t! You don’t have to do this alone.

Nour04

Date posted: 4y

omg this is so amazing!

anonymoose

Date posted: 4y

Also, I’ve had an obsession that there’s a demon or vampire watching me while I sleep, waiting to consume me. I’ve had this obsession since i was a child. Does this mean it’s true? Does having this obsession for so long really mean that it must be true? My brain sometimes thinks it has to be true, but let’s be honest. There’s not a vampire that’s going to eat me (I don’t even fully believe this whole im saying it, but that doesn’t make it any less true). It doesn’t matter how long you feel something. Time doesn’t determine truth.

mattis!

Date posted: 21w

Feels so real

I don’t know if it’s SOOCD. I no longer feel anxious in the moment when I think about women, and it’s like my imagination wants me to think about it and get aroused. I don’t want to be gay, but maybe I am after all. In my life I haven’t been so sexually driven before (when I was living with a man, or when being single) but now all I can think about is having sex with a woman. I don’t want to, but somehow my body does and it feels like my mind have changed to accept it to.. feel so sad This all started around 4 weeks ago..

anonymous1348

Date posted: 20w

hocd

I don’t know what to do anymore, this started nearly a year ago and caused so much stress and panic attacks over the thought of loosing my boyfriend. Now it just feels real and that he always liked girls and suppressed it (but like the boys i always liked in the past were real feelings they had to be and with my boyfriend i love him) but i haven’t got much anxiety now feels like i want the thoughts and that they don’t bother me even tho they used to, this seems to happen every time i get a lil better, idk just feels so true and that’s what i acc want with no stress, just a lil scared.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Secretidentity

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 19w

Is no anxiety normal?

My thoughts are here but I have no anxiety. No matter what if I agree with the thoughts it doesn’t give me anxiety. If I think about how not having anxiety means that the thoughts are my truth since I’m not having anxiety. Nothing is giving me anxiety and I don’t know why but I don’t like that it’s not giving me anxiety. Is this normal?

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