flowersinmyhair
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Jeffrey Jeffrey
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I do have the same issue. When I get stuck I tell myslef I am so stupid and I wish I would have known better and I would make different decisions. The key is to agree with the ocd. It takes away its power.
flowersinmyhairflowersinmyhair
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Thanks, it's nice to not feel all alone. Hearing someone else be mean to themselves really makes me sad. No one should go through that... So I hope the best for you. I'm here if you ever wanna reach out! đ
Jeffrey Jeffrey
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@flowersinmyhair Thanks! I have real event ocd and have shame and guilt from things that happened in childhood. I feel filthy and dirty and perverted. I have changed my thinking to the ocd thinks I am all of these things not any counselor I have seen. So it is important to make the distinction that the ocd tells me I did something horrible. It may have not been my best moment but it doesnât define me today.
flowersinmyhairflowersinmyhair
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Yes!! Childhood. Ah, I could go on all day about how I was gaslighted my whole life and it still happens or I'll hold on to what my family said because fear was driven into me with lies about myself. But honestly, my counselor has told me that family manipulation is toxic. I don't have to believe everything they said about me. And also when you're a child you don't know what you're doing. All kids are curious. It's your parents job to watch you, not yourself. I'm glad you could change it to where you see it's not really you and don't let it define you! I'm working on trying to change my thinking to that. My confidence is just shot right now.
Jeffrey Jeffrey
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Good! My family dynamics were not toxic but my religion was definitely toxic. I am working on that now through erp. The ocd also tells me that the other kids are going to say I did something horrible and since I was several years older I will be thought of as a pervert. Doesnât make sense and I shouldnât care what people think about me but I do. That is why I am doing erp. Retraining myslef to thinks otherwise. Thoughts that are productive. When my ocd hit a few years after the events and I felt so guilty and thinking I was bad my parents were supportive and took me for counseling then. No big deal for the therapist. This is why ocd is the one telling me that I am dirty filthy and rotten and that is the important distinction.
Jeffrey Jeffrey
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@Jeffrey Btw this happened at least 40 years ago now.
flowersinmyhairflowersinmyhair
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Wow this helped me so much. I have a similar situation actually. Just trying to believe I'm a good loving person like everyone else says I am. Good to see its not a rational thought to fret about. Just have to try to believe that now. How has ERP helped so far?
Jeffrey Jeffrey
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It has been quite helpful. It is a lot of work and commitment but it is good.
flowersinmyhairflowersinmyhair
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Awesome to hear that. I actually had to do ERP for my eating disorder and it was terrifying for me. But I'm ready to put in effort for this compulsive thinking. It's just too much for me.
flowersinmyhairflowersinmyhair
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Thanks for talking with me
Jeffrey Jeffrey
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Of course anytime. I am always happy to speak with others who understand and do not judge.
flowersinmyhairflowersinmyhair
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Me as well!! This is awesome. I just joined this. So happy I did. đ
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