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When my boyfriend left that happened to me where I couldn’t day dream about kissing him anymore
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It sucks 😣 how are you doing though?! 🥺
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@Whyyocd I know I’m sorry :( but I promise it gets better and that you don’t have to daydream about him everyday for the love to be any more real. I’m okay! My new obsession is being pregnant haha 😅
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@PinkLotus Thank you 🥺🤍 and oh no I’m sorry!! I’ve experienced that before too! I’m still a virgin and I really freaked out that I somehow might have gotten pregnant 🙃 This was with a past bf. I literally felt crazy. I’m sure you’ll feel a lot better once you get your period ☺️ Also, do you have any advice? Before my soocd I knew I wanted my current bf to be my first. Now I’m obviously worried about a bunch of things because of soocd but also like the other worries about having sex for the first time.
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@Whyyocd Yeah I’m still a Virgin too haha and just anytime we do stuff I get scared 😐I really hope so! And I’m still in the same boat , I want my boyfriend to be my first of course but I’m also scared about soocd worries and regular sex worries. I guess my best advice would be to stick to your gut and what you wanted before all the crazy ocd ! Sex takes time so don’t think it’ll be perfect right away and know that at the end of the day it’s something special to be shared with your partner. ❤️
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@PinkLotus Ahhhh thank you and you’re right 🥺❤️ and I honestly think I’m gonna get scared too about the same thing lol but it’s okay. We will keep pushing through
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@PinkLotus Hey! I’m really sorry to bother you but I was wondering if I could ask you some questions?
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@Whyyocd Of course go ahead!
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@PinkLotus @PinkLotus Thank you 🥺 I’m starting to get anxious about the fact that I’m gonna see my boyfriend in 3 weeks. Like what if I don’t feel the same or I’m not attracted and etc… how were you able to get passed that anxiety?
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@Whyyocd Honestly when I saw him again it was amazing I felt/feel so happy but unfortunately all that anxiety is still there. But when I’m with him it’s a lot less, I recommend just trying to focus on the moment and don’t worry about how it “should” feel or what it’s “supposed” to be like because those expectations will make you more anxious. He’s only here for a short time, enjoy that and don’t waste it thinking about things that are just part of a meaningless cycle. 💌
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@PinkLotus Thank you 🥺💗 so you were anxious when you first saw him again? I feel like that’s how I’m gonna be. But then I’ll also have moments when I think everything is going to be fine. I just care too much I’m sorry it’s hard to not ruminate about things right now 😞
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@Whyyocd Of course :) and hmm well the first night I was super happy but when we did things I did feel anxious and anxious afterwards. I do think I’m always at least a little anxious around him because of how badly I want it to be good so I overanalyze it but it’s super easy to ignore and push to the side
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@PinkLotus That’s good 🥺 thank you again!
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@PinkLotus Hey! I’m sorry to bother you again 🥲 I see my boyfriend this Wednesday! I was wondering if you had any “last minute” advice? Also, how are you?!
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@Whyyocd Hi it’s no bother at all! Honestly, just enjoy every single moment with him no matter what your mind tries to tell you. He is here after so long , enjoy that moment before it’s over. You don’t have to listen to anything your brain says. I’m okay, he landed in Japan 2 days ago and I just miss him so so much. I thought it’d be easier but it’s harder being away from him this time. I’m grateful for all the time we spent together and I enjoyed every moment even when I was anxious, you will too 💌
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@PinkLotus That’s so good!!! 🥺💗 and I’m sorry you miss him so much! Long distance is hard :( and thank you again!! My boyfriend is going to Japan after this too!
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@Whyyocd Of course I’m here for you , lmk how it goes ! 💗It really is hard and is he going to Oki?
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@PinkLotus Ty 🥺 no he’s gonna be at Yokota japan! But hey maybe they will somehow meet each other 😂
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@Whyyocd Haha maybe! 🤣
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It hurts so much to write that. Lately, every time I talk to my boyfriend — whether it’s through text or in person — I feel this deep irritation, like everything he says or does annoys me. Sometimes, it even feels like disgust, and it’s terrifying. I don’t feel love. I don’t feel excitement. I don’t even feel sadness about not feeling anything… just numb. I look at him and I don’t feel like I used to. I don’t know what happened to me. I used to be so sure I loved him, and now I feel like a completely different person — cold, distant, empty. My brain keeps telling me: “You don’t love him anymore. You never did. You’re only staying out of habit.” My mom told me that if I don’t like him anymore, then I’m hurting both him and myself by staying in this. And hearing that broke me. Because that’s exactly what I fear — that I’m faking everything, and I just don’t want to admit the truth. I feel so lost. And I don’t know how to separate my thoughts from reality anymore. All I know is that I want to feel something again — anything. Because right now, all I feel is guilt, fear, and confusion. i used to know these thoughts are just thoughts and that if i didn’t have them i would be so happy but now, i cant think aboyr that bc the thoughts feel too real.
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I’m like 90% sure I’m just bi, more romantically inclined to men, mainly my bf who I wanna marry. But now my brain is like “if you lean into liking women or keep circling and circling for answers you’ll lose all attraction to men and your bf. You’re practically already a lesbian” I feel so tense and anxious I will admit I am talking to chat gpt out of desperation I’m scared of losing all attraction to him I don’t wanna be thinking about women. I don’t unless I’m really stressed cuz when I’m stressed my ocd can take advantage of that I can usually ground myself when I’m in the city with him but I’m back home for most of the summer and I can’t be physically close to him which usually reminds me that hey this is real this is what I really want in life. Him But then I panic and question I haven’t been here in a while tbh. I’m worried I don’t feel enough. I don’t like magic Mike all that much, I like softer guys. But now the fact I don’t like/get turned on by random men on tv but do women in lingerie really stresses me out and makes me worry I’m truly a lesbian but I’m not. Once I started getting to know my bf and my ex bf’s I really did truly genuinely like them and wanted to make out and everything. Idk can anyone relate to the not liking big buff men All my brain is repeating rn is “when he dies you’ll be able to date a woman, when you break up you’ll only wanna date women” and it’s stressing me out. It’s making me nauseous. I was doing well for about a couple days after I initially left but being at home has been so incredibly draining This might give you a vision of how stressful home is: I’ve been on nexplanon for 7 months ish? Only had very minimal spotting during a stressful school period. Today: fully bleeding, like a usual period. I haven’t had my period since having it put in. I wanna go back to my bf so badly rn. I’m so worried I’m faking or don’t feel enough. I’m learning what a healthy relationship looks like and I’m terrified I’m gonna up and leave him when we’re older cuz I’ll finally figure out that I’m a lesbian or smthn. Idk. Someone pls just help me out a tad
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Lately, I’ve been feeling like something has changed in me — like I have changed, and like my feelings for my boyfriend have faded or shifted. It’s one of the worst sensations I’ve ever felt. I keep thinking things like “I don’t love him like before” or “I’ve changed too much to feel anything now.” Sometimes when he calls me or makes a joke, I get irritated for no reason. I feel like I’m being mean, cold, disconnected — and then guilt crashes down on me. I remember how I used to feel: warm, close, expressive. And now… I just don’t feel the same. That makes me think: “Maybe I’ve fallen out of love.” But I’m also constantly anxious. I overthink every moment. I can’t relax into anything without analyzing if what I feel is “right.” It makes me wonder — maybe I haven’t actually changed. Maybe I’m just overwhelmed and tired from months of these thoughts and fears. I don’t know how to feel right now. I just want to believe that this disconnection isn’t proof that love is gone, but a sign that I’m scared and burnt out.
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