Whyyocd
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PinkLotusPinkLotus
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When my boyfriend left that happened to me where I couldn’t day dream about kissing him anymore
Whyyocd Whyyocd
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It sucks 😣 how are you doing though?! 🥺
PinkLotusPinkLotus
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@Whyyocd I know I’m sorry :( but I promise it gets better and that you don’t have to daydream about him everyday for the love to be any more real. I’m okay! My new obsession is being pregnant haha 😅
Whyyocd Whyyocd
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@PinkLotus Thank you 🥺🤍 and oh no I’m sorry!! I’ve experienced that before too! I’m still a virgin and I really freaked out that I somehow might have gotten pregnant 🙃 This was with a past bf. I literally felt crazy. I’m sure you’ll feel a lot better once you get your period ☺️ Also, do you have any advice? Before my soocd I knew I wanted my current bf to be my first. Now I’m obviously worried about a bunch of things because of soocd but also like the other worries about having sex for the first time.
PinkLotusPinkLotus
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@Whyyocd Yeah I’m still a Virgin too haha and just anytime we do stuff I get scared 😐I really hope so! And I’m still in the same boat , I want my boyfriend to be my first of course but I’m also scared about soocd worries and regular sex worries. I guess my best advice would be to stick to your gut and what you wanted before all the crazy ocd ! Sex takes time so don’t think it’ll be perfect right away and know that at the end of the day it’s something special to be shared with your partner. ❤️
Whyyocd Whyyocd
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@PinkLotus Ahhhh thank you and you’re right 🥺❤️ and I honestly think I’m gonna get scared too about the same thing lol but it’s okay. We will keep pushing through
Whyyocd Whyyocd
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@PinkLotus Hey! I’m really sorry to bother you but I was wondering if I could ask you some questions?
PinkLotusPinkLotus
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@Whyyocd Of course go ahead!
Whyyocd Whyyocd
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@PinkLotus @PinkLotus Thank you 🥺 I’m starting to get anxious about the fact that I’m gonna see my boyfriend in 3 weeks. Like what if I don’t feel the same or I’m not attracted and etc… how were you able to get passed that anxiety?
PinkLotusPinkLotus
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@Whyyocd Honestly when I saw him again it was amazing I felt/feel so happy but unfortunately all that anxiety is still there. But when I’m with him it’s a lot less, I recommend just trying to focus on the moment and don’t worry about how it “should” feel or what it’s “supposed” to be like because those expectations will make you more anxious. He’s only here for a short time, enjoy that and don’t waste it thinking about things that are just part of a meaningless cycle. 💌
Whyyocd Whyyocd
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@PinkLotus Thank you 🥺💗 so you were anxious when you first saw him again? I feel like that’s how I’m gonna be. But then I’ll also have moments when I think everything is going to be fine. I just care too much I’m sorry it’s hard to not ruminate about things right now 😞
PinkLotusPinkLotus
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@Whyyocd Of course :) and hmm well the first night I was super happy but when we did things I did feel anxious and anxious afterwards. I do think I’m always at least a little anxious around him because of how badly I want it to be good so I overanalyze it but it’s super easy to ignore and push to the side
Whyyocd Whyyocd
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@PinkLotus That’s good 🥺 thank you again!
Whyyocd Whyyocd
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@PinkLotus Hey! I’m sorry to bother you again 🥲 I see my boyfriend this Wednesday! I was wondering if you had any “last minute” advice? Also, how are you?!
PinkLotusPinkLotus
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@Whyyocd Hi it’s no bother at all! Honestly, just enjoy every single moment with him no matter what your mind tries to tell you. He is here after so long , enjoy that moment before it’s over. You don’t have to listen to anything your brain says. I’m okay, he landed in Japan 2 days ago and I just miss him so so much. I thought it’d be easier but it’s harder being away from him this time. I’m grateful for all the time we spent together and I enjoyed every moment even when I was anxious, you will too 💌
Whyyocd Whyyocd
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@PinkLotus That’s so good!!! 🥺💗 and I’m sorry you miss him so much! Long distance is hard :( and thank you again!! My boyfriend is going to Japan after this too!
PinkLotusPinkLotus
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@Whyyocd Of course I’m here for you , lmk how it goes ! 💗It really is hard and is he going to Oki?
Whyyocd Whyyocd
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@PinkLotus Ty 🥺 no he’s gonna be at Yokota japan! But hey maybe they will somehow meet each other 😂
PinkLotusPinkLotus
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@Whyyocd Haha maybe! 🤣
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