- Date posted
- 3y
- Date posted
- 3y
There have been 3 separate times where I have scrolled through Facebook and a different person with a hacked account has posted real, actual child porn. The first two times I called the cops and talked to the FBI. The third time I just took my anxiety attack pill and went to sleep. The thing about crime like that is that you have to have sought it out yourself. Stumbling upon something or having it forced into your line of vision isn't really like a big deal. It's something that happened to you, not smth you did, you get me?
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- 3y
I think this might be seeking some reassurance. I struggle with HOCD and I have similar pure-o mental checks and worries. You might have to just try to sit with the uncertainty that you could have done something illegal. You may have, you may not. You won’t know. But also remember to be kind to yourself. You are not your thoughts. Your mind racing and trying to fix or solve this is not possible and looking for answers is going to make things worse. Maybe try to say oops, I might have done something illegal today, or I might not have. And whatever happens will happen. Try using the SOS feature in the app!
- Date posted
- 3y
I do checking compulsions like this , but only when I’m kinda sure it’s not child pornography . Like if I see a girl on tik tok doing something a little sexual I’ll be like what if it’s cp but then still watch it . With this one it was the underwear and legs of a kid so that is what freaks me out . I have two obsessions . One is : did I do an illegal compulsion , and the next is whether that image is even child porn . It’s really freaking me out . It’s not that I’m scared I’m a pedo I know I don’t like those images , I’m just terrified of committing such a serious crime
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- Date posted
- 17w
Dose anyone know uk law quite well or anything like that. Basically I would search up thing on TikTok and whattpad multiple times that now I know was disgusting and I really shouldn’t have but I was like 14, 15 and I didn’t understand at that time . I really didn’t know and I’m scared what I did was illegal without knowing it.i really scared
- Date posted
- 16w
I have this same situation replaying in my head. It has to do with porn so if your young just know this may be a little graphic. I tend to use Twitter for porn and the reason I do this is it’s a lot more direct I can type in what I want to see and it’s there I don’t have to go through unknown websites and hope not to get viruses, and to be a little more specific more amateur/ real sexual experiences come up on Twitter rather than porn pages with staged written scenes. So in my use of Twitter for this there’s been times when questionable material/ illegal material has come up and never did I save it knowing it was 100% illegal or even interact with it if I knew it was 100% illegal. I was 18 or 19 at the time of this and I started to fear that in these moments I would look at these illegal videos/ sketchy videos to long when they would pop up like for example I remember seeing a video that was 100% illegal content and I was so shocked and like confused that I looked at it for a moment and then left and then I went back to look at it again just to confirm that I was seeing what I thought I was seeing I also remember seeing videos that were in a 18+ section but sometimes the girls in the videos looked like they could be 15-17. As we all know 18 year olds can look anywhere from 15-17 or even younger these days so I would be cautious and use my context clues and what I knew when watching videos that I was suspicious about but had no proof of them being illegal aside from my thoughts and the person looking young. So with this and me worrying I got super scared and hyper aware of what I was watching and now I remember me going back on Twitter to look at content that I was intending to be 18+ but all I would think about is what if something illegal would come up what if I see it and I look for to long or what if I feel attracted and I like it. And I just remember going back to Twitter to look at legal porn but it felt like I was there so that something illegal could come up to see how I’d naturally react to it. Never did I go and type in key words or type in anything illegal in fact I remember times I would strictly put 18+ next to whatever I was searching so I could be sure everything was legal but sometimes it would feel like my hope and intention was that I would see something illegal so that I could feel that anxiety rush or just to see how I would react naturally to seeing it and I feel like this would count as me intentionally looking for it so now I feel disgusting and like I committed a crime. Sometimes I just feel like I was only looking at porn because I wanted to feel that anxiety of what if something bad comes up and how would I react. I know deep down I didn’t want to see illegal content and that I was probably just feeling that I wanted to check how id feel if it did come up but now I feel like I was intentionally looking and that my whole objective was for something questionable to come up so I can see how I react. Is this ocd or did I just make a horrible decision?
- Date posted
- 16w
I’m worried about times when Child P*rn or suspicious porn videos have come up in the past. I tend to use Twitter for porn and it’s not the most moderated app out there but I was never looking for videos or pictures or anything related to that. Unfortunately stuff still has popped up and I’m just worried about if my reaction was perfect because I have intense POCD I want to say it’s nearly as severe as it can get so I just feel as if I remember times when something suspicious came up and I stayed for a moment to make sure I wasn’t attracted or maybe left and came back to be sure I was safe and didn’t like it and I’m afraid this counts as seeking out or engaging in illegal content that would get me in trouble. I’ve never once looked this stuff up and anyone who creates saves distributed or likes this stuff I believe deserves prison time for life but I’m just so worried that I didn’t react in the way I should’ve I’m 20 years old so I’m relatively young and I’m jus worried about what this means about me any one else deal with anything similar?
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