Whyyocd
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LisaP99LisaP99
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My ocd causes me to lose my sense of self like I’m worthless. And when I calm down or have a good day, my true self returns and I feel confident and full of love
Whyyocd Whyyocd
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I’m sorry 🥺 but I’m also glad you have good days! I thought I was doing better but then got super triggered I guess. It’s hard to think I’ll ever feel like myself again
LisaP99LisaP99
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@Whyyocd Right! When you’re in it, it does seem like a never ending feeling. And it’s hard to convince yourself “hey, ya know your true self really feels a different way”. In the moment those seem like just words and the bad stuff is reality. Feels so good when the axis turns, sucks to wait for it to pass.
LisaP99LisaP99
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@Whyyocd I didn’t mean for you to feel bad for me, lol. I was trying to relate and when I saw your apology, I thought to myself “oh no”. 🤦♀️
Whyyocd Whyyocd
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@LisaP99 No it’s okay!! Just for me, at least right now, even on my good days I don’t feel the most confident. It’s more like moments. Just because of all the intrusive thoughts, images, and etc. It’s gotten really hard. Like I just want to stay in my room again. But I’m in college so I gotta keep pushing through :)
LisaP99LisaP99
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@Whyyocd Yeah they’re relentless. And you’re supposed to go about life, doing what we’re supposed to do but I feel like I’m carrying around a 150 lb ugly hag on my back who just chatters in my hears all day; I hate her, lol. Hope you don’t mind me asking, are you seeing an ocd therapist currently?
LisaP99LisaP99
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@Whyyocd But during those moments of confidence, I make sure I recognize them, recognize how it feels, basically bookmarking them in my head and I refer back when I’m not feeling the greatest.
Whyyocd Whyyocd
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@LisaP99 That’s a great idea 🥺 and I literally feel the same!!! And yes I am. Since like mid July. I was with a different therapist though. I had to switch because I started college late August and our schedule couldn’t work. I went at least two weeks without having a session. That probably hurt me a lot because I went from one environment to a completely different one. Like I didn’t realize how much avoiding I was doing. And then coming back to college and having a job as a resident advisor. There’s absolutely no avoiding there lol
LisaP99LisaP99
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@Whyyocd Yeah, change in routine is hard for an ocd sufferer.
LisaP99LisaP99
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@Whyyocd Hey hope this isn’t too stalkish but yesterday afternoon I stumbled onto something I want to share. We’re already getting triggered and experiencing anxiety, might as well turn it into something beneficial. Episode #292 on https://theocdstories.com/ Really liked it!
Whyyocd Whyyocd
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@LisaP99 Not at all!!! Thank you :)
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