at this point in recovery, triggers don’t cause a whole lot of anxiety, but hours later i realize i’ve been ruminating ever since the trigger happened. 😅

that’s what my therapist says, as well!

it’s so frustrating, like i don’t even realize i’m doing it! and then i’m like “uh how long have i been trying to rationalize that trigger?” 😂

@bdk Even better though that means you’re ready to now start to stop ! Yitmmm

@bdk Literally in the same boat ⛵ as you like sometimes i respond to my intrusive thoughts with a cumpulsion and i catch myself like damn i just responded to the intrusive thoughts. But i have the bad habit going like i already did might aswell keep going and get to the bottom of this. Smh so hard to handle

@HiOcd yes i do that, too! and i never get an answer but i’m always like maybe this time i will lol

@bdk It's like i do it until it feels right and i feel a good amount of reassurance

@HiOcd yes! self reassurance is my biggest compulsion.