I’m not going to reassure you, because OCD wants that. But I will tell you that I went through the same thing. I didn’t want to take medicine and I even got it once and just threw it in the trash. But recently I had enough and decided I need more help. And I started on Zoloft. So I didn’t listen to OCD and just took a chance.
Therapy combined with medication(s) are an appropriate treatment for OCD. Do you “believe” in meds for diabetes? Or any other physical illness? Because mental health is no different than physical health
Yes you're doing the right thing
Medicine and therapy has changed my life. My family is very traditional, I wasn't easily inclined to take meds, but once I started I was like wow so this is how regular people feel? The brain is a science and can only be fixed with more science. It took a little while to find the meds I liked best, I'm on Lamictal + Buspar on a daily, then Mirtazapine for sleep and alprolazam for emergency panic attacks.
It will help so you can get through the hurdles. Yes, it makes OCDers anxious because we want to be in control and overthink about consequences. Confide in someone close that you are trying it so you are comfortable not doing it alone. You may have to try different ones, but zoloft is a light starter.