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- 3y
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I feel like I can kind of relate, but I'm not sure if it's exactly the same. Like, it's more like my mood is all over the place, I've recently been starting off everyday feeling very panicked and I can't always quite determine why, eventually it kind of dies down but the rest of my day is normally thrown off because of it I think. It normally gets better though, but then I'll feel kind of sad again later, and then even later I'll just totally forget about how sad I was, but then when I try to go to bed I'll start feeling some stress again, but it's never as bad as it was in the morning. I realize all of that probably sounds confusing, but I'm trying to sum it all up the best I can think to. There are a lot of days where I just don't feel like doing anything either, even when I finally have the free time to do whatever I want. I don't really know much about derealization, but I think I'm going to look it up now though because I'm curious. Also, just thought I should mention, I don't have the same OCD that you have Imaan7, so I don't know if what I'm struggling with is completely related to what you're struggling with or not, so I don't want to give bad advice. Also, thanks for your reply OatsBro98! I think that is helpful advice that you gave. :)
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- 3y
I definitely understand where youre coming from, for me Im in a state of confusion all the time. Mornings and nights is when it gets really bad. I feel like I lost a big part of myself that made me ME and now It feels like someones put a blindfold on my mind and Im going through life without being able to feel or see anything. Hope that made some sense haha Its a messy situation Im In. I wish you all the best my friend!
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- 3y
I can definitely understand the state of confusion you're talking about. Nothing with OCD seems to make sense, it feels like I'm not the same person that I was, it feels like a part of me was taken away when I got OCD too. I've been dealing with it since 2012 though, so I've improved in certain ways over time, but more recently I've started having setbacks again, and it just feels so complicated all the time. I don't know what to make of it. But just being able to talk about it on here is very helpful. I wish you all the best too my friend. Glad I can talk to you.
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- 3y
Exactly the same! Maybe it can be derealization, it's common in anxiety disorder like OCD. In my case it get better when I am active in my life, studying everyday, reading books, go for a walk or in nature and doing this kind of things.
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- 3y
But I feel like I lost my identity, I dont feel like doing anything and due to depression Im very emotionally numb aswell
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- 3y
@Imaan7 Ok I understand, I think I feel something very similar in reality, I am not referring to the depressive "numbness", but to a sense of estrangement from the world and from others, as if I were no longer myself, I saw things differently and were part of another reality. I don't know if that's what you feel, I thought about that while reading you, but I've noticed, about me (every person is different) that if I keep busy (in a healthy, non-compulsive way) and don't have the time to analyze these feelings, things get better because I stop noticing that
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Instead, when I am not active, I am relaxing so much, for days, I feel more derealizated
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- 22w
so since mid december i’ve been feeling like this , well first in mid december I’ve started feeling anxiety like normal, normal as in physical things like feeling like im going to pass out, shaking, chest pain, etc. but then it got worse , then it turned into more of mind stuff like feeling not real , feeling weird like idk. my mind is always runningg like on over drive, like looking back at myself that doesn’t seem like me. like idk. i can’t stand to look at myself anymore bc it doesn’t feel like me. i can’t be alone , when i think about to it makes it sm worse. but how do i stop thinking ab it? or make it better. i’m scared it’s gonna get worse. like i can’t even do my makeup anymore bc i think something bad will happen. i can’t go certain places , like stay the night bc i think something bad is gonna happen.
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- 20w
Hi everyone, I haven’t posted in a while—about 6 months—but I’m really struggling and need some help or advice. I thought I had healed from all of this, or at least I was doing so much better. I have never felt this before but it feels like I’m slipping back into something I can’t control. Right now, it feels like I’m stuck in a bad reality. It’s like I’m trapped with my dad in one reality, and I’m trying to get back to the other where I’m with my family, but I can’t. It’s so hard to explain, but everything around me feels unreal, and my mind keeps telling me I’m stuck. It feels so real, and I don’t know how to get out of it. It’s like I’ve been transported to another world, and I can’t break free. nd now I’m scared I’ll never come back to the “good” reality I had before. and I genuinely believe this. I’ve been struggling with these thoughts about spiritual realms, the devil, and spiritual warfare. My dad has always talked about these things, and he’s gone through psychosis before. He’s also had a history of doing a lot of drugs, and now I’m terrified that I might end up like him. I fear that I’m somehow becoming like him, trapped in that same mental space he’s been in. He talks about spiritual stuff that scares me, and I can’t shake the thought that I might be losing myself the same way he did. I know this might sound weird, but I feel like I’m getting closer to that line, and I don’t know how to stop it. I keep feeling like I’ll never come back to the way things were, like I’ll always be stuck in this distorted reality. I’m afraid of losing myself, especially in my faith. I believe in God, but my thoughts and fears about all of this are making it hard to feel connected to Him. I feel so distant from God right now, and it’s hard to see how this can change. Has anyone else experienced something like this—feeling like you’re trapped between realities, afraid of becoming someone you don’t want to be, or struggling with fears like this? How did you cope? I just need some hope that I can get through this and come back to a better place. I’m scared, and I feel like I can’t escape this. Any advice would really mean a lot right now.
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- Date posted
- 17w
This obsession is new, but feels so much more grounded and it’s so anxiety inducing. Since the ocd started I’ve lost my sense of self and confidence. I got soocd and it slowly turned into be doubting my identity on whether I want to identify or dress masculine or feminine. I don’t feel good in the clothes I would typically wear out before I’m constantly overanalyzing how I’m feeling , it makes me really anxious and like I’m preforming. So then I started doubting if I would rather dress masculine and it’s extremely anxiety inducing and idk if it’s the ocd now but it feels like that’s how I want to dress.. that’s not what I associated with at all before the ocd but now it feels like that’s what would make me feel fully confident and loose in the world, does anyone else experience this??
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