Need some advice Ill be honest I dont think I have ocd anymore, Maybe I do bc I still obsess on It but It dosent feel like it. I actually think my fears have come true on some level but I feel sharp anxiety and depression on a daily basis, so much so that I might leave my job soon its getting hard to function each day. And since it was ocd that led to all this mess should I see an ocd specialist still? If not who do I talk to? I feel very lost

OCD is a chronic disorder. It doesn't go away. I think you would really benefit from an OCD assessment. That's how I got diagnosed. You need to find a therapist that understands OCD and specializes in ERP. It truly does help. I highly recommend starting treatment through NOCD. My therapist is awesome. Also, traditional talk therapy does not work for OCD. Good luck to you.

My therapist told me if you’re not having all the ocd symptoms they may not diagnose you or may miss diagnose you! Be aware of this when seeing a non ocd therapist so that they don’t trigger you and make you spike again! (From experience)

OCD doesn’t really “go away.” if yours has, then take that as a win and consider yourself the luckiest person that ever was haha.