It's so incredibly overwhelming. OCD thoughts and compulsions have attached itself to every aspect of my life. I cannot bear to be without my girlfriend. It's painful. When I'm with her, my brain is quiet and I'm enjoying pure happiness. But when I'm not with her, my brain questions every aspect of our relationship. Sigh, OCD makes everything so confusing.

I have very similar situation that is pointed to my relationship. Every time I am not with my girlfriend I am having doubts of what she is doing and whether she is faithful or not. Making a therapy for 1 2 months but not very good improvement.

Aw damn, that's really tough to go through, I'm sure. We're in this together my friend.

Yes, absolutely. What is the main anxious thing that bothers you in the relationship?

What bothers me the most, are these what ifs: "what if i change too much and i become disinterested", "what if i find someone more physically attracted and i cheat on her?", "What if I'm using her and not actually loving her?" The one that hurts the most is the cheating one. I would not be able to live with myself if i did that. Just imagining her hurt in anyway like that kills me