I'll be honest... I'm really not doing good right now :(. I went to the renaissance festival with my friends and somehow my ex who never liked to do anything was there with another girl. I saw him twice. My ocds been super bad lately, as my period is coming. Especially the hocd. Could someone give me some tips with no reassurance on how to deal with this situation please? 🥲

This is quality advice my friend 🤗

I'm really trying my hardest not to give in but I can't help it right now. Everything feels like a lie and I'm pretty miserable :/

@alexisrae1999 I’m asking you to do something hard, painful, taxing, and something that feels completely against what your Brain at the moment wants to do. But this is what healing looks like. It’s simple; but it’s not easy. If it was easy this chat wouldn’t exist. You can do it. You’ve done it before, and you’ll do it again. But I’m asking you to really pull something deep inside yourself, and ask yourself something personal: “Do I want OCD to win?” Or do you want to have your life back. Do you want to be weightless and enjoy your moments here on earth. What is that you really want? I know you want healing. So before anything be kind to yourself. You are so kind to others. Do it for yourself, you deserve it. And tell OCD that it can do what ever it wants to you, but you’d rather have a life without ocd but live a lie, then give in to ocd and have some feeling of reassurance that lasts for a second. Maybe everything is a lie. So what ? Why can’t we live in the discomfort of “we don’t know “ . Why does it have to be certain. Why can’t we be adventurers who don’t know what’s next in front of them, a snake pit or heaven on earth? It’s a bumpy one, but it’s one hell of a ride. Let’s except this crazy, scary, and confusing journey.

@Sasha Thank you for this sasha, I really appreciate your help. I haven't been this bad in a while and I really don't know why seeing him in person for the first time since we broke up set me off like this. I'll really do my best to fight this but I am feeling pretty down since I gave into quite a few compulsions

@alexisrae1999 I understand. I have had similar experiences with my exes. They feed into our ego insecurities and this triggers our ocd. OCD is highly dependent on our ego needs, so it only makes sense that psychologically you would get tripped up about seeing your ex. Take it one moment at a time. And remember that this feeling you’re having right now, although it’s all consuming, it will pass. Time will give space, and space will provide clarity. Away from ocd and away from your emotional triggers. Wishing you lots of love and light

@Sasha That definitely makes sense. I know when I'm spiraling everything seems irrational and I come to fake "epiphanies" and such, but when I calm down I feel the clarity more than I would in a panic. Thank you so much for your help, I really appreciate you taking the time out of your day to write me :)

@alexisrae1999 It’s my pleasure. You have all the answers. I’m just sharing what you already know . :)

Thank you sully, i try to be helpful even when I'm not feeling good :) klems to you too

I feel like absolute crap right now. :( I have been spiraling and my strength is not very there right now