alexisrae1999
- Date posted
- 4y
SashaSasha
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
Your OCD mind is going to want to ruminate on the event. It’s going to try to convince you that this is the best method to solve your anxiety. It’s not. Don’t listen to it. You will be tested by the OCD for a little bit. It will come and go throughout the day, and it’s going to try to lure you in. Just be strong, by not giving in. Remind yourself that each time you don’t give in, you don’t just weaken OCD now; but you weaken it for the long run. There is a long game my friend. And you have to stay in it, to see the benefits. In order for you to not give in, you have a few techniques at your disposal. Doing nothing and observing is good, but it’s not always enough. Sometimes you have to go further. That means go and exercise. Go and take a long walk. Go and get some ice cream. While you’re doing this though, don’t give in to rumination. But your day can’t be just sitting and playing chess with ocd. It involves living. Go live, and go and meet life even when ocd is attacking you from all sides
MatthewKesterMatthewKester
- Date posted
- 4y
This is quality advice my friend 🤗
alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
- Date posted
- 4y
I'm really trying my hardest not to give in but I can't help it right now. Everything feels like a lie and I'm pretty miserable :/
SashaSasha
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
@alexisrae1999 I’m asking you to do something hard, painful, taxing, and something that feels completely against what your Brain at the moment wants to do. But this is what healing looks like. It’s simple; but it’s not easy. If it was easy this chat wouldn’t exist. You can do it. You’ve done it before, and you’ll do it again. But I’m asking you to really pull something deep inside yourself, and ask yourself something personal: “Do I want OCD to win?” Or do you want to have your life back. Do you want to be weightless and enjoy your moments here on earth. What is that you really want? I know you want healing. So before anything be kind to yourself. You are so kind to others. Do it for yourself, you deserve it. And tell OCD that it can do what ever it wants to you, but you’d rather have a life without ocd but live a lie, then give in to ocd and have some feeling of reassurance that lasts for a second. Maybe everything is a lie. So what ? Why can’t we live in the discomfort of “we don’t know “ . Why does it have to be certain. Why can’t we be adventurers who don’t know what’s next in front of them, a snake pit or heaven on earth? It’s a bumpy one, but it’s one hell of a ride. Let’s except this crazy, scary, and confusing journey.
alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
- Date posted
- 4y
@Sasha Thank you for this sasha, I really appreciate your help. I haven't been this bad in a while and I really don't know why seeing him in person for the first time since we broke up set me off like this. I'll really do my best to fight this but I am feeling pretty down since I gave into quite a few compulsions
SashaSasha
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
@alexisrae1999 I understand. I have had similar experiences with my exes. They feed into our ego insecurities and this triggers our ocd. OCD is highly dependent on our ego needs, so it only makes sense that psychologically you would get tripped up about seeing your ex. Take it one moment at a time. And remember that this feeling you’re having right now, although it’s all consuming, it will pass. Time will give space, and space will provide clarity. Away from ocd and away from your emotional triggers. Wishing you lots of love and light
alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
- Date posted
- 4y
@Sasha That definitely makes sense. I know when I'm spiraling everything seems irrational and I come to fake "epiphanies" and such, but when I calm down I feel the clarity more than I would in a panic. Thank you so much for your help, I really appreciate you taking the time out of your day to write me :)
SashaSasha
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
@alexisrae1999 It’s my pleasure. You have all the answers. I’m just sharing what you already know . :)
Sully4 Sully4
- Date posted
- 4y
I’m sorry I don’t have any tips, but I just want to say you are amazing Alexis! I hope you keep you’re head up! You are always so uplifting and helpful on this app! I’m sending you a big hug! Klem! 💙
alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
- Date posted
- 4y
Thank you sully, i try to be helpful even when I'm not feeling good :) klems to you too
MatthewKesterMatthewKester
- Date posted
- 4y
Nooo Alexis 🥺😭. You are better than your OCD, it is just trying to pull you down. I know you have the strength to realize that you are okay with what happened with your ex. You have the strength to know that you are perfect and complete. Much love to you my friend, you've got this ❤️
alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
- Date posted
- 4y
I feel like absolute crap right now. :( I have been spiraling and my strength is not very there right now
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