what if what i'm going through is internalised homophobia and i am not able to accept myself? and why am i not panicking enough over this?

i feel the same. Now I don’t feel anxiety and it’s like a “fact” that Im lesbian and it seems like Ive accepted it. It feels like I don’t wanna be with guys and It feels like I never actually liked men

same, I even don't feel the same attraction to guys, I feel so stupid