I know what you mean. I went through scary thoughts about religion and my thoughts used Bible verses to try and make me feel worse and give up on the only hope i have. I now try to believe God is here for me no matter what, even when it’s hard. Things may not always be perfect but we don’t know what Gods plan for us may be. Maybe this will bring us closer to Him and maybe this will affect us in others that are also helpful in the long run! God bless!