I’ve ruminated so much that I think I’ve found proof of my fears- should I just accept this is a compulsion and try and stop?

yes! this is a compulsion. Stop. :)

I used to ruminate for days at a time to figure out and to get to bottom of it. It doesnt work because your OCD will give you another puzzle to solve. And in the vicious corcle around and around you go. There is no end to it. What ever answer you give its never satisfied it’s always asking for proof.

R tree Hank you guys, when you think you’ve found proof it’s difficult

There is no proof to find because it doesn’t exist. How can you find something that doesn’t exist.?

@DADO I agree, but you convince yourself that you logically have worked it out or have found some sort of proof, because the thoughts are so quick and the feelings are so strong

Having thoughts quick is called Mental Diarrhea and you believe in it gives you feelings. The moment you’re fighting something that’s not real you lose.

Thank you, its hard trying to not do the compulsions when you convince yourself of the fears

Rumination is a compulsion. The more you do, the stronger and more numerous your intrusive thoughts will become. You are only making your OCD more powerful. You can convince yourself that you have found proof your thoughts are true (another compulsion) just because the intrusive thoughts feel true doesn't mean they are. OCD thoughts are not logical. You can't reason or argue with them. All of these are compulsions. Yes, they give you temporary relief from your anxiety. Butbthey make things in the long run. If you truly want to change your life, find a therapist who understands OCD and specializes in ERP. ErP will help you relieve your anxiety in the long term. But its your choice. You can either take steps to experience real change or you you can spend the rest of your life on the hamster wheel of constantly giving into your compulsions. Recovery will take hard work and time. No one but you can decide where you go from here.

I appreciate what you are saying, I know deep down it’s a choice to keep worrying and ruminating - it just feels like you logically work it out or have found proof somehow with your thoughts. But this will never end it will keep brining up the thoughts until I stop all the compulsions