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- 3y
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- 3y
yes! this is a compulsion. Stop. :)
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- 3y
I used to ruminate for days at a time to figure out and to get to bottom of it. It doesnt work because your OCD will give you another puzzle to solve. And in the vicious corcle around and around you go. There is no end to it. What ever answer you give its never satisfied it’s always asking for proof.
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Having thoughts quick is called Mental Diarrhea and you believe in it gives you feelings. The moment you’re fighting something that’s not real you lose.
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- 3y
Rumination is a compulsion. The more you do, the stronger and more numerous your intrusive thoughts will become. You are only making your OCD more powerful. You can convince yourself that you have found proof your thoughts are true (another compulsion) just because the intrusive thoughts feel true doesn't mean they are. OCD thoughts are not logical. You can't reason or argue with them. All of these are compulsions. Yes, they give you temporary relief from your anxiety. Butbthey make things in the long run. If you truly want to change your life, find a therapist who understands OCD and specializes in ERP. ErP will help you relieve your anxiety in the long term. But its your choice. You can either take steps to experience real change or you you can spend the rest of your life on the hamster wheel of constantly giving into your compulsions. Recovery will take hard work and time. No one but you can decide where you go from here.
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- 3y
I appreciate what you are saying, I know deep down it’s a choice to keep worrying and ruminating - it just feels like you logically work it out or have found proof somehow with your thoughts. But this will never end it will keep brining up the thoughts until I stop all the compulsions
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- 3y
@Arranf23 I wish I was brave 😂
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- 3y
R tree Hank you guys, when you think you’ve found proof it’s difficult
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- 3y
There is no proof to find because it doesn’t exist. How can you find something that doesn’t exist.?
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@DADO I agree, but you convince yourself that you logically have worked it out or have found some sort of proof, because the thoughts are so quick and the feelings are so strong
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- 3y
Thank you, its hard trying to not do the compulsions when you convince yourself of the fears
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- 22w
So, I know my capacity to get fixated on things. And it's normally something that's relatively remote but, my latest issue is really getting to me and I was wondering if people have any advice. I'm avoiding getting too into specifics, as I don't want this to get reassurance-y but, in essence.. I came to the realisation recently that people who I'd been "friends" (feels like the wrong term now) when I was younger were not very nice people, and normalized a lot of very unpleasant behaviour towards other members of the group. They really normalized it, sold themselves as figures of authority, as older and more responsible and grown-up than others, and looking back, they acted horribly. And coming to this realisation, that I'd been manipulated into just accepting their behaviour has just... broken me. My OCD has latched onto it and I can't stop feeling irreversibly tainted by it. I've talked to others about it, and they've reassured me, told me it's not a big deal and that I hold myself to too high a standard, but none of that sticks. I feel better for a bit, then think 'Maybe when you told them you were skewing it to make yourself look better' or 'Did you leave out a crucial detail'. I keep ruminating over and over, trying to remember exactly how everything played out, trying to figure out if I fed into the behaviour, if I did something bad myself (because y'know, I feel like I was accepting of it at the time, so what does it say about my own values?). I know I need to stop doing all this if I want to improve, but then some part of me keeps saying 'So, you're just going to let yourself off the hook then?' Normally, I can rationalize my own fears to some degree, assure myself something won't happen, but the realness of the situation, and the fact I only came to understand the reality of it because the thought had been bothering me means it feels so much more all-encompassing. I know confessing in itself is a compulsion, but I keep feeling that if I'm not I'm somehow concealing what I 'really am' from others around me, and any positive interactions are me deceiving them in some way. I feel like I can't enjoy anything in life right now, and a good part of me feels I should not enjoy it ever again. If anybody has any advice on it, I'm all ears. Or even hearing if you relate to these feelings, I might appreciate the solidarity at least.
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- 20w
So hard to not engage the thoughts because even though it's from the "past" (i don't even know if im remembering things correctly and it kills me) and i can't change it, I just NEED to prove it to myself that it didn't happen this way. If you'd asked me questions maybe a few months ago, I would have been able to lucidly explain things. Now I just feel like I'm in a constant swarm of thoughts, not knowing if anything is real. If my brain is to be trusted. Wish I could just get hypnosis to forget
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- 17w
Does anyone else experience a moment of clarity where you feel strong relief that the intrusive thought isn’t true, only to then immediately start questioning if you’ve only convinced yourself that because you don’t want the thought to be true? I’m pretty confident it would take some crazy mental gymnastics to actually successfully convince myself I didn’t do something that I deep down knew I did, but every time I resist the compulsions and try to sit with the uncertainty or tell myself to think about what is logical, I usually briefly know that this probably didn’t happen but am unable to move on out of fear I’m just in denial and have convinced myself of that.
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