my thoughts feel so real and genuine, like i really want them, yet it barely stirs up any reaction: i don't feel anxious about me feeling like i like them. is that normal? does it happen in ocd? why don't i feel anxious? i am not looking for reassurance, just actual information. like can i feel like i like the thoughts and feel no anxiety? it used to make me super nauseous but now i ignore them and ignore the feelings and it makes me feel more in denial. sometimes i get these "visions" in the future of me falling in love with kids (and girls) and it feels like that would happen and it doesn't make me anxious or stressed

@Pain😢🥺 I’m not diagnosed... I’ve had this for over 15 months... I hate this...

yes but not that much. what do you think about my post? does it mean my thoughts are true if i feel like i desire them and have no anxiety?

@hhhhhh but not that anxious honestly, and i barely think about it anymore. it's not even the backdoor spike, i just don't feel anxious neither about the thoughts nor about feeling like i like them, which means they must be true. even this causes no anxious reaction

@Lilyrosalynd like if i imagine myself with a woman or a kid to check it feels almost normal or as if i am okay with it. i don't want to be okay with it which sounds like denial

@Lilyrosalynd i feel so in denial it's unbelievable to think it's ocd. like if this were ocd i wouldn't feel like i like the thoughts and i would feel anxious about it

@Lilyrosalynd I’m in the same situation :( I don’t feel anxious but I do feel very depressed and empty because I feel like my obession was true all along

@random_person for me it's like i don't even care at this point but deep down i still do which is like denial. could it be due to the fact that i have been very well surrounded with friends and family?

@hhhhhh what if i feel happy but am not letting myself?

@hhhhhh sometimes i do and it makes me feel sad or disturbed, but not enough. and sometimes i can just ignore it and move on, which makes me feel in denial

@Lilyrosalynd Do you also feel like ERP won’t work for you because of not feeling anxious?? Because that’s how I feel

@random_person i feel like i am my thoughts because i don't feel anxious

@Pain😢🥺 no i am not :( but i feel like i really like my thoughts and i don't feel anxious about it although when this started i could barely function

@Lilyrosalynd i sound so gay

for me it feels so real and i feel no anxiety and it's been like this for quite a while now

@Lilyrosalynd How long has it been like this for you?

@random_person i'd say since late july or august. do you think i don't have OCD?

@Lilyrosalynd No don’t worry I don’t think that you don’t have ocd just asking because I’m going through something similar

@random_person do you think i have ocd?

@hhhhhh i can't really pinpoint but it hasn't been a year

@Lilyrosalynd Probably, I’m not an expert on ocd but it seems like you do have ocd from what I know

@random_person then why do i feel like i like it and am not anxious anymore?

@Lilyrosalynd I have no idea I’m in the same boat :(