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- 3y ago
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- 3y ago
It's really one of the most shame triggering actions to violate one's own values and moral sense. For now you just have to go through that painful emotion and explain yourself, why you did what you did. Next time you are in a similar situation or could conduct the same mistake, you know even better not to take that path. Also your individual values got validated - you wouldn't feel so ashamed, if they were not important to you.
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- 3y ago
You are correct I experience this shame and guilt as a result of my mistakes I just wanted the intrusive thoughts to stop or go away. I feel horrible about myself and my life I used to feel much better about myself than I do now, I think the biggest issue I now face is harsh judgment from others for my mistakes and my past especially women how they would view me I am trying to constantly figure out why I did what I did, I am a complete mess I feel helpless and hopeless on the inside and just pure gross.
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- 3y ago
I knew who I was before all of this shit started I can never get that person I once was back
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- 3y ago
@Sad mom š¢ I thought so, I thought that I would or I didnāt know, I know before this happened to me I was happy and alive on the inside I felt amazing about myself growing up I was confident never confused I feel into a severe depression, I know who I am but now I fear women judging me for It, my past really drags me down I feel horrible about myself
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- 3y ago
@Sad mom š¢ Right now I feel like my OCD and my life are completely out of my control I feel Horrible
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- 25w ago
18+! When I was child I was VERY hyper-sexual Iām not sure when it started. All I remember I was being very sexual with other kids at the time, I think I thought it was normal and nobody was stopping me either at the time so I had no idea I was in the wrong. I think I had to be 13 or 14 where it hit me out of nowhere that I was wrong. The floodgate of anxiety was horrible I had so much guilt it was eating me up. I had to stay home, I quit going to family gatherings, quit hanging out with new friends Iāve made, I cried a lot. Til this day I think about it everyday and the amount of guilt on my chest. If I could go back and change it all I would. I wish I could have a better understanding of me and why I was doing it. Itās the guilt and anxiety I deal with every single day. I never meant to hurt anyone.
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- 17w ago
Iām sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you canāt relate and donāt think youāll say anything helpful or kind pls donāt comment anything⦠Iāve been struggling with somethings thatās making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like Iām enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I havenāt done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that itās just wrong this doesnāt make sense to me because Iāve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and Iāve been known that these things are wrong so Iām just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldnāt act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time Iām genuinely convinced that Iām a horrible and itās even got into the point where I donāt wanna be here anymore and I donāt even think this is my OCD :( tbh
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- 11w ago
Everyday I wake up, all my mind makes me think of is the stuff Iāve done in the past, like all day Iām in a constant cycle of judging who I used to be and it hurts so so much. I wish I never thought to do those things, I wish I had been more mature than how I was before, itās really lowering my self worth and I donāt think Iāve ever felt this miserable before, like last summer was the worst because I was dealing with this shit, I about almost ended my life over it, and I thought it would get better, which it did, but it didnāt last but for a while. As soon as it became 2025 I was going through it again, having constant cycles of āIām a good personā to āIām the worst person imaginableā and Iām so sick of it because I just want to feel like the good person l like to imagine myself to be, but I canāt because of shit I did in the past that I obsess over. Iāve cried and screamed so much over it and it seems like it will never leave me.
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