Does anyone else’s HOCD hyper-fixates on one person from the past? I can’t get my mind off it, idk it bothers me and it’s so hard not to analyze why this girl from my high school affects me so much when I barely even knew her. I only noticed her as someone who was pretty and smart, never even considered that I got attracted to her nor even crushed. Yet, HOCD says otherwise. Now she’s on my mind 24/7, I have to keep shutting my brain down and just let the thought sit in the background but it doesn’t leave. I don’t wanna start looking her up or smth, I don’t even know her name. I’m pretty sure that if I crushed on someone- I’d look them up and imagine romantic scenarios with them. When I had an imagined scenario with her- it felt so hollow on my mind and I’d start to get anxious after a few seconds as of why I’d think those kind of stuff with her.

As I’ve posted before, my friends has developed TOUGH hocd and has hit rock bottom :// She told me to ask y’all here if any of you have had a similar experience NOT reassurance (she doesn’t have NOCD). “Hi NOCD community. When I was like 5 I had this distant female cousin whom I played with and grew up. She had super short hair like a boy, but we low key had same interests in toys/tv series etc. and then at THAT age I got a very weird though which said: do you like her? And I remember getting a lot of anxiety and my stomach hurting cause why tf would I have that kind of thought about my female cousin? I remember ruminating about it the whole day, and the next day that thought disappeared and I never had that thought again. We grew up and obviously she’s my family like my sister. But now that I have HOCD, I keep thinking about that memory and I have so much anxiety about it and cry often about it. While growing up I’ve only had crushes on tons of boys at school etc. has anyone had a similar experience?” Thanks for reading if u did! We need support 😭🙏🏻

As I’ve posted before, my friends has developed TOUGH hocd and has hit rock bottom :// She told me to ask y’all here if any of you have had a similar experience NOT reassurance (she doesn’t have NOCD). “Hi NOCD community. When I was like 5 I had this distant female cousin whom I played with and grew up. She had super short hair like a boy, but we low key had same interests in toys/tv series etc. and then at THAT age I got a very weird though which said: do you like her? And I remember getting a lot of anxiety and my stomach hurting cause why tf would I have that kind of thought about my female cousin? I remember ruminating about it the whole day, and the next day that thought disappeared and I never had that thought again. We grew up and obviously she’s my family like my sister. But now that I have HOCD, I keep thinking about that memory and I have so much anxiety about it and cry often about it. While growing up I’ve only had crushes on tons of boys at school etc. has anyone had a similar experience?” Thanks for reading if u did! We need support 😭🙏🏻

Why does Hocd latches on to a specific person?