Does anyone else’s HOCD hyper-fixates on one person from the past? I can’t get my mind off it, idk it bothers me and it’s so hard not to analyze why this girl from my high school affects me so much when I barely even knew her. I only noticed her as someone who was pretty and smart, never even considered that I got attracted to her nor even crushed. Yet, HOCD says otherwise. Now she’s on my mind 24/7, I have to keep shutting my brain down and just let the thought sit in the background but it doesn’t leave. I don’t wanna start looking her up or smth, I don’t even know her name. I’m pretty sure that if I crushed on someone- I’d look them up and imagine romantic scenarios with them. When I had an imagined scenario with her- it felt so hollow on my mind and I’d start to get anxious after a few seconds as of why I’d think those kind of stuff with her.

jusme

247d ago

yes this happens to me

Acrasia

247d ago

Have you gotten over it?

jusme

247d ago

@Acrasia no not yet

Acrasia

247d ago

@jusme I’ll pray that we do, this is so tiring

jusme

247d ago

@Acrasia me too 🙁

YoureNotAlone

247d ago

This also happens to me. Unfortunately with SO OCD it blurs my line in my memory between crush and infatuation and friendship. Did that person just want to be my friend? Did I just find that person really intriguing? Do I want to be like them? Etcétéra. What I try to do is say… “well, I won’t know for sure. And I’m not going to try to figure out why I’d think of those kinds of things w them, because it doesn’t matter.” And sit with the discomfort. Very difficult and takes PRACTICE but works. Basically an exposure.