Whenever I feel really upset it's like I've convinced myself the thoughts are true because now I haven't been focused on my loss of attraction to guys and the checking to see if I like girls makes me feel sick, and now when I feel terrible it's like I feel that way bc I've "realized" that its just denial, and now it's making me think that being with the same sex will make me happy and it feels so real but that just makes me more depressed, and this might sound silly but I'm afraid of getting therapy and being happy and what if I find out its the truth, wich makes me think it's denial even more. It's a cycle of pain, I feel so anxious and depressed but I can't even cry. I just want to be straight, I don't want to feel like im homophobic and in denial anymore

Username: set_me_free:)

Date posted: 436d ago

I want to be staight too, but there is things what makes me think otherwise and that scares me too...

Username: miamigirl

Date posted: 436d ago

i feel this especially the therapy part

Username: miamigirl

Date posted: 436d ago

it’s unreal for something to feel this wrong and make me so unhappy

Username: Imaan7

Date posted: 436d ago

Relatable :/

Username: nurem14

Date posted: 436d ago

I was there, is normal guys you just have to let go of that need of knowing for a fact that you are straight youll never get it unless you embrace uncertainty, its hard but you just have to be able to live with any possibility in order to stop obssesing and get rid of anxiety towards this, only then youll be able to see clear again. And therapy Will help so much, just tell yourself " well maybe i Will find out a truth i fear but at least i'll be able to cope with things through therapy" lose that fear.