Sorry for back to back posts but these thoughts and intense rumination over these months have confused me about everything. Ive confused and tangled myself up so badly, would a therapist be able to untangle this mess that Ive created? I get so many strange questions in my head and I cant come up with any answers to them and I dont need reassurances but I need answers that will help me see clearly. Its so foggy up in my brain :/

But the point is not to have the answers, stop the compulsions is the key - I have existential ocd - and the more you ruminate and do other compulsions the more you tangle yourself within the ocd - it makes you think you have worked it all out and your fears are true but it’s just trying to keep you intangled - stop looking for answers and stop all the compulsions both physical and mental. The mental compulsions will be harder to stop - that’s what I’ve found anyway - but the ultimate freedom comes with stopping it all, you finally stick the middle finger up to ocd and say I’m not doing this anymore

One thing I’ve learned through theropy and this app is you HAVE a choice, choose not to do the compulsions

I understand all that but the questions I need answers to arent bc I simply need reasurance of my sexuality, these strange questions have perplexed me and created errors in how I percieve people, just need some clarity and someone to point out the errors I make in thinking those weird things, If that makes sense.

If these questions are genuinely perplexing you and you are interested in it then that’s different maybe - but if it’s linked to your ocd at all and gives you anxiety and you have compulsions then seeking answers is not going to help- you have to stop the compulsions that’s it- and I know I make it sound easy but it’s not.you will get clarity once you stop engaging with the thoughts because your brain will stop bringing them up for you to solve , or panic over

Well they are linked to ocd but like I said I think they created errors in my thinking and I think need some outside perspective and clarify what and where Im thinking wrong with these questions. Bascially straightening my perception on it

I understand what you are saying , intrusive thoughts/ocd does create errors and twist the way you think - but as far my therapist has said to me (your therapist may say different ) erp and stopping compulsions will help you find clarity - and bring your brain from panic mode to normality. It may be that your brain is on alert constantly so the doubts and the mental diarrhoea that you are having is twisting your perspective. Commit to the erp theropy and it will help