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- 3y
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- 3y
But the point is not to have the answers, stop the compulsions is the key - I have existential ocd - and the more you ruminate and do other compulsions the more you tangle yourself within the ocd - it makes you think you have worked it all out and your fears are true but it’s just trying to keep you intangled - stop looking for answers and stop all the compulsions both physical and mental. The mental compulsions will be harder to stop - that’s what I’ve found anyway - but the ultimate freedom comes with stopping it all, you finally stick the middle finger up to ocd and say I’m not doing this anymore
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- 3y
One thing I’ve learned through theropy and this app is you HAVE a choice, choose not to do the compulsions
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- 3y
I understand all that but the questions I need answers to arent bc I simply need reasurance of my sexuality, these strange questions have perplexed me and created errors in how I percieve people, just need some clarity and someone to point out the errors I make in thinking those weird things, If that makes sense.
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- 3y
I understand what you are saying , intrusive thoughts/ocd does create errors and twist the way you think - but as far my therapist has said to me (your therapist may say different ) erp and stopping compulsions will help you find clarity - and bring your brain from panic mode to normality. It may be that your brain is on alert constantly so the doubts and the mental diarrhoea that you are having is twisting your perspective. Commit to the erp theropy and it will help
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- 3y
Thank you, That could be It too!
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- 3y
If these questions are genuinely perplexing you and you are interested in it then that’s different maybe - but if it’s linked to your ocd at all and gives you anxiety and you have compulsions then seeking answers is not going to help- you have to stop the compulsions that’s it- and I know I make it sound easy but it’s not.you will get clarity once you stop engaging with the thoughts because your brain will stop bringing them up for you to solve , or panic over
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- 3y
Well they are linked to ocd but like I said I think they created errors in my thinking and I think need some outside perspective and clarify what and where Im thinking wrong with these questions. Bascially straightening my perception on it
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- Date posted
- 19w
Hi, I'm 17,about to be 18. I've been struggling with these thoughts for the past 8 months. I was wondering if someone experienced ever the same because I feel im "different". BACKGROUND: (I'm not diagnosed with Ocd but seeing a local counselor) About 9 months ago I cheated on my boyfriend with this guy S (who blackmailed, manipulated and molested me). Since then when I realized that what i did was very WRONG and so I started ruminating picking apart every single interaction and telling my boyfriend, i tried to remember every single detail because otherwise I felt like i was being a fraud and hiding things to save myself, i had many crisis about it because I had also what i think was false memory ocd. My boyfriend forgave me idk how tbh I still wonder. CURRENT STRUGGLE: Months ago I was sure I didn't wanna S in any way and i was sure even when everything happened. For the past 2 months tho I've been having thoughts like " Do I love S?" "I love S" "S is hot" "Would S find me hot?" "What if I want S?" " What if I don't love my boyfriend enough?" "What if I secretly want S?" "What if I see my boyfriend as a friend only?Do I?" And I tried testing my reaction to intimate scenarios with S, I'm scared I like it i dont really wanna love S or have any secret attraction, I wish I didn't have any of this and I want to be sure of my feelings for my boyfriend because I know I wanna be with him and I see a future with him like he brings me comfort. But a part of me keeps trying to convince me otherwise. Sometimes I think I'd rather die than have these thoughts. Im so scared of not being able to control my feelings, im scared I can't resist S and its giving me anxiety and making me cry. Sometimes when i think of those sexual scenarios with S or I get those thoughts my mind tells me to smile because i like it because I find it funny. It makes me doubt myself all over again. Like I'm always like I need to test if I'd feel aroused to intimate scenarios with S, lately im trying to fight this urge to test and test but my mind is like "just do it this once so you can be sure. I can never watch anything romantic or sexual or whatever because my mind would be like "you and S" or sometimes I'm just enjoying time with my bf and im like " yes we can just have a sneaky cheating thing thats ok" and it makes me want to figure it out to find an answer a solution because idk it just does like I need to find the meaning of it if it means the truth and all. Im worried im just an awful person and these thoughts just ruin my quality of life . Today i had a crisis where i ended up doinf swlf harm, I'm so scared of finding someone that's not my boyfriend desirable or sexual appealing or whatever it is, I also have bodily reactions when I try to imagine and test my reaction to scenarios. Now i keep groing everytime and I dont know why but i have this sensation and I dont want to havebit especially when its something S related. Does someone experience the same thoughts? Am I alone in this? Is this ROCD? What should i do?
- Date posted
- 18w
So hard to not engage the thoughts because even though it's from the "past" (i don't even know if im remembering things correctly and it kills me) and i can't change it, I just NEED to prove it to myself that it didn't happen this way. If you'd asked me questions maybe a few months ago, I would have been able to lucidly explain things. Now I just feel like I'm in a constant swarm of thoughts, not knowing if anything is real. If my brain is to be trusted. Wish I could just get hypnosis to forget
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 16w
So I’m not sure how many/if any of you are Christians, but I’m assuming this can still make sense to some of you. This morning has been rough. I’m constantly thinking, “am I saved? Have I never been saved and I’m tricking myself into thinking I am? When I’m listening to Christian music am I doing for the right reasons? Is it too late for me?”. Things I know the truthful answers to but yet I still think these thoughts. I don’t understand why. Why do I constantly think about these “what if”’s? My heart always feels so heavy and I feel as if I need to talk to God right then and there to make it stop and go away. But then am I talking to the Lord for the wrong reasons? And the cycle repeats. Thankfully, day one of my therapy is tonight and I’m hoping to find at least a little clarity on this stuff. I’ve had OCD for 7 years and I don’t even know how it works. Any advice?
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