Hi I need help. I have not been diagnosed with ocd but I am sure I have it hence why I am here. I am a teenager and matured quicker then normal so my family treat my younger than my mental age ( understandable). The accept when my cousin has ocd and we share compulsions but completely dismiss it when i bring up getting help and getting an official diagnosis. It feels like they are ashamed of having a child with a mental disorder and it kills me when they are accepting of my cousins ocd, another cousins autism and another cousins dyslexia, and support them. When I told my friends about my situation they said I was lying and accused me of being one of those people faking it ok social media to seem edgy or different. I can’t sleep without checking the 46th minute of every hour, turning off the lights in order, tucking my curtains behind my cushions, picking my socks in a specific place, avoiding touching all water except for showering counting things to eight, counting my steps too and from school and tossing and turning in my bed in a certain way. This started very young and got worse when someone very close to me died the same day as when I didn’t do one of my compulsions. I still blame myself to this day. You may have seen my post and I have tried to post it here to get as much help as possible. If anyone has any advice whether you think I don’t have ocd, whether you think I am a dramatic teen or not any advice would be much appreciated. Thank you.