How can I be intimate with my boyfriend when I constantly ruminate about my SOOCD?

Hey there just wanna say you're not alone. I'm right there with you. I've been with my boyfriend 4 years and intimacy wasn't really a problem until soocd started about 2 years in. Since then I've struggled with intimacy and ruminate about it a lot <3 it breaks my heart and can feel really isolating. I still struggle with this and it's what triggers my fear most of the time. If you wanna talk I am here. We don't have to go through it alone

I struggled with rocd bad a few months ago and then my soocd has gotten so bad and make me question everything like my life is a lie. I do a lot of exposures and things have gotten better but the uncertainty still really bothers me

@diane_ Same here, erp helped me a lot but I still obsess and compulse mentally a lot

@Whatabtme Crazy because I feel like I’m in denial and it scares me so much