it feels super real yet i am sitting here so chill about it all. whyy?? is it really real and i am just ignoring it to remain in denial?

Sexual Orientation OCD

"Pure" OCD

It seems by the frequency of your posts that you’re rather triggered. I’d recommend using the SOS feature here on the app and using this as an opportunity to practice response prevention. 

but it doesn't feel like i care or like i am triggered. i am ignoring all of it and not feeling panicked. i don't even know if this is ocd at this point 