so like my mind is trying to hit me with stuff from the past but i am ignoring them and not ruminating over them, just dismissing them. isn't that denial?

no babes, that’s standing up to ur ocd!!! proud of u! x

really??? like i even get feelings but i ignore them and don't ruminate over them or try to check because it makes me feel worse, and it's like i am okay with them. is that accepting i am gay, denial, or accepting the presence of the thoughts as a good step towards recovery? i am do confused because i didn't do any erp, all i did was have fun throughout summer and stay with friends and family and like delayed ruminating over the thoughts or checking. like i would be having dinner and get a thought, i would say "yes make a mental note of that to think about it later" but then i don't because i would have forgotten or would be too happy/tired to do so.