Hocd Tw Mentions of sex
I dont feel any romantic attraction to women but I can see myself doing romantic things with guys in the future and lately Ive accepted it too. Ive bascially made a compromise with my brain that If I do some stuff with guys It will stop causing me pain and let me live my life. I think this is backfiring now though bc now Im getting anal sensations and other weird groinals.
Since I accepted being gay or whatever my brains makes me feel like If I can accept that I can be fully gay in the future too? I dont want to be fully gay. But now saying that justakes me feel hard in denial. Im so sad :/, Ive messed up my head so much.
Should I still see an Ocd therapist at this stage that I am in?