Accepting and loving yourself will most likely help
but the thing is i don't want to be gay i don't think i am but i just don't know how to explain it to you
@Lilyrosalynd In my opinion- I guess the first step is to accept that being gay is okay. It’s okay for others so you have to think “well if I were gay, I’ll still be me but my SO will be different. No big deal.” But I relate a lot to how you feel cuz I may have sexual orientation ocd too. Doubting my sexuality a lot but I think I have a grasp of knowing who I am. So I’ve accepted those who are gay and I’ve accepted the idea if I were gay. Then I move on with life cuz sexual orientation isn’t everything. SO is part of you but it isn’t all of you. I try not to obsess about it.
@AngelCarmo i was doing better too but now i just can't accept it. i just can't accept that i might be gay. i don't want to. it even feels like i don't know myself anymore. at first i was so aware that i was straight but my mind was bugging me. now idek
The only way to get better is to accept that possibility you might be gay or that you might be in denial.