Lilyrosalynd
- Date posted
- 4y
K K
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
The only way to get better is to accept that possibility you might be gay or that you might be in denial.
A Vero A Vero
- Date posted
- 4y
Accepting and loving yourself will most likely help
LilyrosalyndLilyrosalynd
- Date posted
- 4y
but the thing is i don't want to be gay i don't think i am but i just don't know how to explain it to you
A Vero A Vero
- Date posted
- 4y
@Lilyrosalynd In my opinion- I guess the first step is to accept that being gay is okay. It’s okay for others so you have to think “well if I were gay, I’ll still be me but my SO will be different. No big deal.” But I relate a lot to how you feel cuz I may have sexual orientation ocd too. Doubting my sexuality a lot but I think I have a grasp of knowing who I am. So I’ve accepted those who are gay and I’ve accepted the idea if I were gay. Then I move on with life cuz sexual orientation isn’t everything. SO is part of you but it isn’t all of you. I try not to obsess about it.
LilyrosalyndLilyrosalynd
- Date posted
- 4y
@AngelCarmo i was doing better too but now i just can't accept it. i just can't accept that i might be gay. i don't want to. it even feels like i don't know myself anymore. at first i was so aware that i was straight but my mind was bugging me. now idek
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