alittleapple
- Date posted
- 3y
honeybee17honeybee17
- Date posted
- 3y
i am on 100 mg of Luvox and false memories and harm OCD are big triggers for me. for me, this medication is helping and i’ve noticed significant change in being anxious. i still have these thoughts because unfortunately medication isn’t going to stop us from thinking. medication takes a while to work in and for me, i really like this medication , but if you are having doubts, i encouraged you to talk to your doctor. best of luck!
alittleapplealittleapple
- Date posted
- 3y
Thank you so much! Also, I am here if you ever need to talk to a friend who’s going through similar issues! My insta that i made for my ocd is ocdi_ary
alittleapplealittleapple
- Date posted
- 3y
Also, when does the med start working and are you on anything else?
honeybee17honeybee17
- Date posted
- 3y
you’re so sweet! i don’t have any social media but i will be here if you need someone 💕 i am not on anything else and it took me a month until i started to really notice. i started slowly and then built up to the highest dosage. it’s very important to keep taking it around the same time in the day and not skipping a day. everyone is different and has didn’t progress with medication. but i’ve been on two different types of medication and the Luvox is the only one where i can notice a change. but i also am in therapy too and medication and having a therapist is a great combo to fight this battle!
alittleapplealittleapple
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- 3y
Thank you so much! I think I’m approaching my 4th week soon in a week so I really hope it starts working! I’m on 50. Did you increase every week?
honeybee17honeybee17
- Date posted
- 3y
i increased every two weeks. you’re still on a fairly low dosage and they might have you increase if you’re not seeing results. unfortunately it’s trial and error with medication. i know in your original post you want something to work with your false memories and i wish there was a medication just for that to fix, but there isn’t. i highly encourage you to have tools, resources and great coping skills. false memories is a tricky one and sometimes it’s not medication that is gonna resolve it but having good coping skills. whenever you have a thought, say to yourself that it’s OCD and nothing more. one thing that helps me with false memories is identifying it as a thought and moving on to distract myself. but you’re in a great direction because you are on medication and medication will work! it takes time! are you seeing a therapist?
alittleapplealittleapple
- Date posted
- 3y
Thank you so much! I am seeing a therapist! Everytime I get a new thing I’m stuck on usually it’s one a day of a new case that either gets solved in my head somehow or keeps sticking. It’s usually me believing that I killed someone/people and try to find evidence. Everytime there is a trigger such as if I’m feeling angry or if my bf says something mean or if someone says something to me or etc I think to myself “i really must have done it this time” I’m really trying not to solve the one that I got yesterday that is on going till today. I get very suicidal over this it’s so hard every day to get through the day :(
honeybee17honeybee17
- Date posted
- 3y
i know exactly how you feel love. my ocd triggers always range from one thing to the next. OCD has a pattern of doing that. you’ll exhaust one trigger and go to the next. i used to have the same thoughts of hurting someone. it came to the point of me sleeping in the closet because i was afraid i did stuff in my sleep and i would wake up the next day to try to find evidence. always know that you don’t deserve something that is thrown at you because of OCD. that’s the negativity speaking. i had a trigger last night that is still lingering in my head and i always go to having suicidal thoughts. that is not the way to go!!! it’s hard to get through the day, i know that feeling more than anything. we just have to take it one step at a time. you are here now so focus on the present. don’t try to solve the trigger from yesterday. it’s yesterday’s problem that shouldn’t effect today. i know it’s easier said then done, but you got this 🤍
alittleapplealittleapple
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- 3y
Thank you so much 😭 your words are giving me so much strength! What do you think has helped you the most? Does erp really help?
honeybee17honeybee17
- Date posted
- 3y
@alittleapple i’m glad to hear that :) it’s a really good feeling to know that there is someone out there who think the same way you do! what helps me is reading a lot about OCD and intrusive thoughts. i will tell you the title of the book i’m reading when i find it! and yes, ERP does wonders. i have ocd driving and i’m afraid i will hit someone, the more i expose myself to driving, the less anxious i feel. i always try to identify that it’s OCD when i have a thought right away. it takes away the power and helps train my mind that it’s my OCD and nothing more.
alittleapplealittleapple
- Date posted
- 3y
@honeybee17 Thank you so much! I would love to read the book! I’ll try to identify it as ocd right away! It’s just so hard bc my mind keeps saying well bc of ___, this one must be real :(
honeybee17honeybee17
- Date posted
- 3y
i’ve been struggling with that too. i think to myself, “if i’m this anxious, then something just have happened” or i tell myself that “maybe this isn’t really OCD”. that’s just OCD being a jerk and trying to make you doubt so it can prey on you. it’s exactly OCD and that’s all that it is.
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