Tell me why I noticed my Friends hands 😭💀💀💀and today I had a good laugh with him and I was wondering if that meant I liked him bc I have good conversations and laughs b stuff but I don’t want to like him and it’s weird to me like I’m scared abt the future bc what if I actually start ti like him 💀 and I just like ugh I feel so weird bc I really do see him as a good friend like I value friendship very much but then I can’t tell if it’s romantic feelings which I’m scared of abd don’t want to be with him like that abd ever since that confession my mind has literally been thinkng abt like foward stuff if we go like be a thing which I don’t want but idk this shit feels real idek if I can say that bc it feels automatic idk if this applies to false attraction 😭💀 fml I hate ocd

@BlueMountain It just feels like it’s me now 😭 like automatic and I’m not even sure if it’s okay to notice if someone is cute bc I feel bad when idk if I didn’t have ocd if I would even notice them like that ? Bc I also get some anxiety that feels like excitement at the same time and then I notice their face? And it’s just idk so complicated I feel like I’m becoming Someone else bc I don’t want It to be true :/

@BlueMountain It’s just the feelings I get when I notice the cuteness yk?😭 like it makes me feel bad bc it feels like idk if it’s anxiety or excitement like I feel something and then my brain is like oh that’s bad it means someone bad or malicious 😭

@BlueMountain Idk if I explained right or if I sounded wierd 😭🥲

@kathernyr Something*

@BlueMountain Okay 🥲 it’s bc theres so much judgment if someone says someone is cute especially if they’re younger than you at school and it’s kinda looked as “oh you’re weird, that’s kinda weird” yk idk I just don’t wanna be seen that way as a person and I feel like if I didn’t have ocd I probably wouldn’t have noticed? But why do I now? But I’ll take those and use them as a daily thing when I go to school 😭

@BlueMountain Okay 🥺 I’m just feeling so many things 😭 , thank you so much ❤️🥲

@BlueMountain It’s going okay trying to not feel like a bad person rn 😭 but I’m listening to music and mostly just creative artists :)

@BlueMountain Thank you ❤️‍🩹 🥲 how was your day?

@BlueMountain Omg that sounds so Gooood! Love spaghetti 🍝 and that’s cool! And thank youu I hope you’re doing good too 😊

@BlueMountain Welll reading astrology 😂😅 and I’m not gonna lie it’s pretty triggering sometimes but I hate that I can’t stop reading and want to read more 💀 but I’m thinking about making some ramen noodles right now :)

@BlueMountain Oh and I noticed that your profile on Instagram was gone 😭😭😭 what happened If I may ask?

@BlueMountain That’s true I just felt like it applied to me and I see stories or theories abt it that seem to be surrounding what I’m afraid of but not directly but I just assume it and yeah i get kinda scared 😭, and yess I should huh, but omg broo ramen is so good! One day you’ll have to try 👍🏽 recommend

@BlueMountain Ohh okay I understand, sometimes it can be really draining and Time consuming 😅 , and thank you!

@BlueMountain Omg thank you so much means a lot to me 🥺 and omgg i can’t even start on what my favorite food is lollll but I really like shrimp and Alfredo pasta and tamales too!

@BlueMountain But same tho it always depends on what I want to eat 😭 based off my mood

@BlueMountain Alright bett, and what foods have been expanding you’re horizons :), I’m always down to try any new food if it looks appetizing to me lol but another one of my favorites is Mediterranean food it’s soo good

@BlueMountain I’m so indecisive when it comes to food lmaoo

@BlueMountain Ooou I love papaya ! Well sometimes lol but that’s good though just figuring out what you like n stuff I think one of my favorite fruits would be either plums or grapes

@BlueMountain Omg I used to hate bananas but then I started liking them and they can be pretty good sometimes but I’m like mmm no this ain’t it 😭, but yeah that happens to me alott tho too lol

@BlueMountain Yess I also a noticed that they help a lot with cramps lol

@BlueMountain Yes very! Do you have any favorite snacks ?

@BlueMountain Ooou dark chocolate or milk ? I like milk a lot but I tend to eat hot chips or boba drinks lol