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That was my vent 😭 and I want to be friends with other ppl but I’m scared that bc I’m interested In being friends means it’s something else and that I like younger dudes bc most of them are guys and I’m not sure how old they are 💀 bc the girls look mean and I feel like I gravitate more towards the boys so idk 🤷🏽♀️😭
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@BlueMountain It just feels like it’s me now 😭 like automatic and I’m not even sure if it’s okay to notice if someone is cute bc I feel bad when idk if I didn’t have ocd if I would even notice them like that ? Bc I also get some anxiety that feels like excitement at the same time and then I notice their face? And it’s just idk so complicated I feel like I’m becoming Someone else bc I don’t want It to be true :/
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@BlueMountain It’s just the feelings I get when I notice the cuteness yk?😭 like it makes me feel bad bc it feels like idk if it’s anxiety or excitement like I feel something and then my brain is like oh that’s bad it means someone bad or malicious 😭
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@BlueMountain Idk if I explained right or if I sounded wierd 😭🥲
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@kathernyr Something*
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@BlueMountain Okay 🥲 it’s bc theres so much judgment if someone says someone is cute especially if they’re younger than you at school and it’s kinda looked as “oh you’re weird, that’s kinda weird” yk idk I just don’t wanna be seen that way as a person and I feel like if I didn’t have ocd I probably wouldn’t have noticed? But why do I now? But I’ll take those and use them as a daily thing when I go to school 😭
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@BlueMountain Okay 🥺 I’m just feeling so many things 😭 , thank you so much ❤️🥲
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@BlueMountain It’s going okay trying to not feel like a bad person rn 😭 but I’m listening to music and mostly just creative artists :)
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@BlueMountain Thank you ❤️🩹 🥲 how was your day?
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@BlueMountain Omg that sounds so Gooood! Love spaghetti 🍝 and that’s cool! And thank youu I hope you’re doing good too 😊
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@BlueMountain Welll reading astrology 😂😅 and I’m not gonna lie it’s pretty triggering sometimes but I hate that I can’t stop reading and want to read more 💀 but I’m thinking about making some ramen noodles right now :)
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@BlueMountain Oh and I noticed that your profile on Instagram was gone 😭😭😭 what happened If I may ask?
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@BlueMountain That’s true I just felt like it applied to me and I see stories or theories abt it that seem to be surrounding what I’m afraid of but not directly but I just assume it and yeah i get kinda scared 😭, and yess I should huh, but omg broo ramen is so good! One day you’ll have to try 👍🏽 recommend
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@BlueMountain Ohh okay I understand, sometimes it can be really draining and Time consuming 😅 , and thank you!
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@BlueMountain Omg thank you so much means a lot to me 🥺 and omgg i can’t even start on what my favorite food is lollll but I really like shrimp and Alfredo pasta and tamales too!
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@BlueMountain But same tho it always depends on what I want to eat 😭 based off my mood
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@BlueMountain Alright bett, and what foods have been expanding you’re horizons :), I’m always down to try any new food if it looks appetizing to me lol but another one of my favorites is Mediterranean food it’s soo good
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@BlueMountain I’m so indecisive when it comes to food lmaoo
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@BlueMountain Ooou I love papaya ! Well sometimes lol but that’s good though just figuring out what you like n stuff I think one of my favorite fruits would be either plums or grapes
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@BlueMountain Omg I used to hate bananas but then I started liking them and they can be pretty good sometimes but I’m like mmm no this ain’t it 😭, but yeah that happens to me alott tho too lol
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@BlueMountain Yess I also a noticed that they help a lot with cramps lol
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@BlueMountain Yes very! Do you have any favorite snacks ?
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@BlueMountain Ooou dark chocolate or milk ? I like milk a lot but I tend to eat hot chips or boba drinks lol
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False attraction has been killing me ive had it for months with the same person. I have a boyfriend so having false attraction makes me feel so guilty. And lately theyve felt so real and ive been so anxious. What if I do like him bla bla. Ive only ever saw him as a brother and we have a good connection and he is one of my good friends but even sometimes when im having a conversation I feel like im cheating. Sometimes I get excited like oh yay he is gonna be here and then I get scared that it’s romantical because I get excited when he is around because he is a funny. Im so scared thats its real attraction because I love my boyfriend I would never do such a thing. And lately my minds done stuff like oh grab his attention stuff like that and it feels like I have done those actions but I dont want to. Sometimes when he is like idk sitting near Im like oh is he looking and my minds like oh do something to empress him bla bla. Recently he was going thought stuff and my boyfriend was there and I was I can give him a hug because I think he needs it but after I thought of it as bad because he is a guy and I had this false attraction what if I did it because I like him bla bla. I am freaking out idk why my mind makes me do compulsions that I have acted on like oh go talk to him and I do its weird urges that I do not want to do. I am scared that it will come true
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my ocd and anxiety has been so bad a couple of days… so i started liking this guy that i am friends with and we also went to prom together… after prom, i caught feelings for him even more because he’s so respectful and nice… but he is also a boy that acts like one… but overall he’s rlly sweet.. the other day though since we go to the same school we were in the parking lot after school with our friends just talking and socializing… but once he was leaving i went to go give him a hug and hugged me… my other guy friend was with us who’s also friends with him and hugged him too and whispered in his ear and said “yo u and sav would be a good couple” and he nodded saying “yes” (my guy friend told me that) so eventually i told him saying “yeah i like him” blah blah but there is a problem that bothers me so badly… my friend likes him… i didn’t tell her for a while until i think my OCD was just bothering me sm if i didn’t tell her so i told her how i felt and i was just saying like “i don’t want this to ruin our friendship or anything but i have feelings for him…” yada yada… she was like “i understand but if i’m honest with u if u ask him out i will be upset” i’m just like i wasn’t planning to rlly i can’t tell if he rlly likes me anyways but i didn’t say that… i said “i’m just telling u how i feel” and she goes “i mean i would see u guys anyways because u guys are closer” then she says “can i ask u something and a non rude way” and i was like sure…. she goes “since i’m the first person that liked him can i give it a try if it doesn’t work that’s that” and i was like girl idk it’s Gods plan if it doesn’t work it doesn’t if it does it does” and i’m saying that in the most mature and respectful way yk? because i am christian i’ve been praying about it also. so we were good after that but my anxiety and OCD has been so horrible… i’m uncomfortable around them because she flirts with him but i don’t and she did it on ft when i fell asleep on ft and my best friend was on there and had to hear it….she told me that he does it back she just can’t tell if he’s joking or not… but i’m so overwhelmed about it i’m having thoughts like “what if u and him stop being friends” … “what if something bad happens” …. “what if ur not confident in yourself enough where he won’t like you” …. “what if this is a love triangle” i’m just so sick of this and i don’t wanna be so distraught over a stupid boy because i’ve been through sm with my past talking stage thinking it will work but now im like rlly cauious over being in a relationship now…
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There’s this guy I just worked with who honestly felt like another version of me, someone who I could get along with massively. Everything we’d talk about was the same, our interest, our taste in films and music, it felt amazing to have someone to chat to. I can’t lie he was also physically very much my type, so I do fancy him. I said to my friend that I think I found the love of my life, but the sad thing is he’s taken so I’ll take having a crush dip and suppress the fact I fancy him and she went all serious with me. Started saying “good because that can ruin a friendship, especially with a girlfriend”, and it wasn’t meant to be so deep and now it’s got me massively overthinking. I’ve only known him a very short time but I wanted a friendship to be there yk, we’ll never really see one another every again after the festival but it felt nice to have had such a good friendship, even if I feel like I’m another life he would be the perfect one. Can I not feel like that and still have a friendship? I’m never gonna do anything about it, I currently like someone else and he also has a gf, but can I not joke about it without it being all serious? I’m massively overthinking it
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