One of the hardest things for me to accept is that maybe my brain is doing all of this to me and that none of it is real.

I’m really scared I have / I’m experiencing psychosis. The symptoms link heavily with my solipsism related thoughts. But then I think ‘no, psychosis is just made up and fake, like everything else’ which distresses me too. I don’t even know if you guys are real. Please help!

If the uncertainty leads me to accept the thing i am running away from how was that not true and if the uncertainty the may be or maybe not in the future gets me to do something i might be in denial of what then?!? This is a possibility and a big one cause if i would have been so sure if myself why would i even question in the first place…And with uncertainty how do i know anything for sure and people who don't know will say they are gender queer so how am i not that.….. ¡ have stopped feeling the anxiety and all these feel real and I don't even react to it cause i am tired and numb to them its like I don't know who i am anymore and everyone with soocd constantly says they know they are straight or whatever and i used to earlier and now I don't why dont i?! Why do i feel like thats a lie or could be a lie and my brain has confused my emotions and feelings to the point where nothing feels real anymore and i feel like an imposter and someone who doesn't know who she is and is suffering…… is this ocd doing this or my thoughts being real just me not realising? Is this ocd i am constantly trying to figure out if the thoughts are real or not and then i say if its real i type all this because i am scared and fear and in denial like where does this end?!

Why is OCD so confusing? My obsessions upset me so much because the truth about them is quite concerning and depressing to me. So how is treating OCD going to help me when it feels like a REAL problem to me. What if I am never able to accept the uncertainty of my issues. It doesn’t even feel like an OCD problem to me…it feels like a reality problem. I’m not happy with reality and the truths about existence, so of course it’s going to make me sad. I guess it’s just my own mind though. My concerns and thoughts are REAL. If I could go back to not thinking about these certain things, my whole perception on life, myself, reality as a whole would be fine. I feel like people tell me it’s OCD but I don’t agree..yet I don’t actually know what the real problem is. What if I can’t accept reality? It’s such a terrifying feeling to have. I feel so crazy.