Anxiety was the only indicator and sliver of hope I was clinging onto that maybe just maybe my fears arent true but I stopped feeling anxiety all of a sudden a week ago and since then I feel like I just want to go and act on all my thoughts. I think Im just suppressing myself and if given the chance Id act on them. That screams denial I know but Im also isolated in my room 24/7 with these thoughts, again just hoping that its my brain distoring my sense but yeah I feel like the gay thoughts have won unfortunately.