I need to get this off my chest if anyone can read and offer any advice Id be very glad. I feel I have lost my sense of identity months ago that made me Me and now I feel blank inside or feel like as if a new identity is emerging from within me. In short I forgot what it feels like to be Me. ( Maybe its a result of depression)? Ive been beggining to accept lately that Im gay and ready to live that life because thats how strongly I felt in denial and like I just knew I was gay. But accepting it may have backfired because when I dont isolate myself and think about my past life and family and future it dosent fit my value system properly. Because I always liked women( I think) wanted to be with one and never saw guys that way. Hence going back to what I said above feeling of losing my identity and values. But now thinking about having or being with a girl feels like im forcing a square shape in a triangle hole :/ Hope that some some sense? Am I just making excuses for my denial? I feel like I confused myself really bad by ruminating and overthinking, dosent help that I had a weak sense of identity to begin with. Im scared :/ :(