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The fact that it scares and disgusts you means you do not want that. You need to stop checking and try to distract yourself somehow like watch a good movie. You are not a bad person, and you do not want those things.
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It just feels like it’s me now :( , only thing I can do is listen to music rn
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@BlueMountain 🥲🥲 thank you idk if I deserve to be called that 😭😭😭🥺 like I feel like a bad person but thank you ❤️🥺 how can you be so sure ? I’m really just doubting everything
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@BlueMountain Thank you 🥲 it’s so hard, I’m having more thoughts abt the future that if I’m so used to the thoughts I’ll act on them and have thoughts that intentional and not intrusive.. :/ I just don’t want to feel this when I’m around kids. Like feeling I want to do something to them ikk kinda scared bc idk what’s going to happen if I’m alone with one and I just keep thinking abt my abuser of it I just hate it all
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@BlueMountain It’s so hard 😭 cause now it’s making me say stuff in my like “ I like their thighs” and such it’s just so specific and detailed 😭 it just popped up rn and it feels like I’m aroused which I hate like if I actually like it and agree with it
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Hey yall, having a tough time. I’ve been struggling with intrusive thoughts while I self pleasure and it GENUIENLY feels like I enjoy them for whatever reason. And then now about half an hour later it’s like okay it’s a sexual thought but I might not actually like it. Idk I just really hate myself, because I basically genuinely liked it in the moment
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Why the h•••ll did this happen to me? Seriously, I felt like a normal person yesterday, and now this morning, I feel like I am now a p•••do. When I first woke up, I kept thinking about about the usual things about a kid, only this time it felt real. It was like I was into them sexually and because of that, my private parts growed. Even though I kept saying "no, no ,no" a lot, I felt was only talking to open air and it didn't feel like I meant it God, for the last couple of days, I truly felt normal for once, and against these thoughts. But now I know that I am a p•••do and a piece of s••••it for seeing kids that way. If I could go back before all of this happened, I f••••cking would. Because I KNOW I was never like this before.
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Why are things so real the first time they’re in my mind and then when I think about it later it’s easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back I’m like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldn’t help but think that in their real life they’ve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back it’s just ugh. Idk if it’s sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I don’t want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldn’t type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but I’m still scared
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