I don’t know if u are in the same place I was, but I remember thinking my thoughts weren’t intrusive when they were. Literally the only way I could tell was calming myself down and waiting for some time, because when you are stressed (ESPECIALLY OCD stressed) ur brain just does not work. At all. I realized if I wanted to do what’s best for everyone I needed to clear my head.
I don't know what it is. I just feel so over the place. I don't want to be a bad person that has bad thoughts but I do. And I just want a happy life with people. I feel I don't deserve my relationships because of my bad thoughts and I just want to confess them all to everyone. It's just so confusing. Like I need to know if I'm a bad person or not. And it keeps coming back no matter how much I ERP. I just feel like it's a black tunnel of despair at the moment.