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Hi keep reminding yourself these thoughts come from fear not desire ocd can be really cruel don't fight them they come back harder just acknowledge them as anxiety feuled thoughts and bring your attention back to reality or focus on your breathing anything that's happening in the moment hope you feel better soon š
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Thank you
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Try to see it as just thought, it's just throught and not your urge or something like that. It's just throught, troughts can come and go, and it doesn't means that we want them. I know it is very hard but try to look it that way, it's ocd which makes you trapped in them, not your wish or urge. Try to remind yourself that. I wish you will be back to your free and beautiful state of mind where you feel happy ā¤ļø
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Thank you.
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Your welcome stay strong
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Iām so sorry your dealing with this right now, sending you love ā¤ļø Iāve heard lots of people with pocd who were saād worry about the same thing. You may get thoughts like āWhat if I do what my assaulter did to meā or āwhat if it turned me into a predatorā ocd is going to latch onto a situation like this because it heavily relates to your theme. Try not to engage with these thoughts, and treat them like you have other intrusive thoughts. Iāve actually struggled with a similar thing before and talked to my ocd therapist about it and apparently thereās no proof that being saād as a kid turns you into a predator, in fact I believe it she said it was the opposite.
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Please help me. I need support. I just need someone to be up front with me. Tell me the truth. I want to get past it all. I'm struggling STRUGGLING today. My mind is telling me I'm the only one who is dealing with something like this. Idk why I did my biggest fear. I was put on a new medication when this happened which caused me to spiral, my thoughts to be more often, and have insomnia. I have been diagnosed with POCD as well. I woke up in the middle of the night when my child was laying completely cross my chest. I was breathing and having groinal sensations. My mind told me that I assaulted her by this, and I was going to prison for it. My thoughts started going like this, "you're already bad might as well do something else", "no sense in stopping now" "you can finally do what you've always wanted", "what would you do if you could do anything to cause harm" So I had to think of what to do in the moment. The only thing I could think to do was move my elbow towards my child's groin. In the moment it felt like I really wanted to do this. I proceeded to do so, and my elbow touched her groin. I immediately told my child to move off me. I then went back to sleep. When I woke up, I began panicking, confessing to a family member what happened, and crying immensely. I feel like I failed as a mother. I'm in such distress since I started sleeping on the floor to avoid it from happening again, and I got off the medication. I'm so much better OCD wise since I got off the meds. I was the BEST mom months ago before this happened. The thoughts have always bothered me, and I was always scared I would give in and act on them. I'm living my worst nightmare. I feel alone. Felt so wanted in the moment and SO real. Ugh. Could someone just give me some support? (edited)
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