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I feel the same I get strong real arousal only towards guys and I’m a guy
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Keep your head up and reach out for help that’s always the best way to work all these feelings and anxiety’s out ❤️
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So u think I’m gay
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How would I know?
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Idk I’m just scared that I probably am
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do you truly think you are gay? or are the thoughts so convincing that you feel like its the only way out? do you want to be with a man?
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I dont know, I dont know who I want to be with. All I feel like Is I will/want to act on my thoughts and like them which is makes it clear to me.
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I don’t know it’s tough to answer
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Well, first off i think you should stop posting on here it’s become a form of seeking ressurance. I know from experience, the more i post in one day the worse that day is. And i see you posting all the time. 2. All of us feel the same way as you, so remember you’re not alone:) 3. The thought “i wish i didn’t feel this” EVERY ocd sufferer has had at LEAST once 4. My therapist has been telling me to refer to my head as two: ocd brain & my brain. Sometimes things are intertwined and you can’t tell what’s your brain or ocd’s brain. Once you learn to seperate those two and detatch them, it becomes a little easier. I’m still learning to—far from it actually. A lot of the things i want, i feel like i don’t want and am just lying to myself. And the things i don’t want, I feel like i do want them. It’s very confusing up there so ik how you feel Literally last week i was sobbing for 3 days straight—they were awful—cause i thought i was gay. I have to read a book on sexuality w/ a girl that’s a lesbian for my english class, and atop that I’m in a project with a masc lesbian which is my BIGGEST trigger. I feel more attracted to them than to anything rn, and it freaks me the fuck out. So just take a step back, and breathe. I’ve been exactly where you are today—it’s overwhelming and hard and literally feels as if you’re in the pits of hell, but there is always tomorrow. Sending love your way💛
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First of thank you for the reply! The thing is ive become too confused after having only these thoughts everyday for a year and 5 months, I havent been able to think about anything else. Im too confused and lost, my previous life and dont make sense anymore. Reason why I say Im in denial and most likely gay, is bc I feel like acting on my thoughts and feel like its a desire now.
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@Imaan7 I feel like this too :( but remember ocd can feel as real as it gets
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@Imaan7 This has been my main theme for seven years! On and off of course, but rlly badly since I was fifteen—i’m nineteen now! And yes i get those urges and feelings to!! I hate them Ocd just isn’t intrusive thoughts like everyone thinks: it’s intrusive urges, intrusive feelings, and so much more! Ocd is a very complex disorder and is sometimes hard to pinpoint. That’s why they say most people in therapy get worse before they get better. Therapy is hard, but worth it (i hope)
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@strawberry ice cream What strawberry ice cream said is very true!!
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@hate_ocd.123 I dont think they are intrusive anymore, I dont know what happened if my sexuality changed Or I just discovered it. Probably the second one tbh, but its ok, just gonna try and accept my fate as just like most gay people have had to in this world.
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@strawberry ice cream I dont know If I talked myself into it, I dont know anything. Im a mess, all these gay thoughts have become so normalzied in my head and I think I would act on them if I got the chance. I dont know 😒. So tired
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@Imaan7 Trust me, i do feel the exact same way and it scares me as well. It’s terrifying.
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I’ve recovered from HOCD before and got my attraction and my usual actual identity back. I was recovered from end 2022- start 2025 until I got triggered UGHHH😭 My HOCD is REALLY trying to convince me and it’s SO annoying cause I genuinely don’t want these thoughts. I know I naturally like men and always have done so. I can’t wait for my first therapy session in two days Omg! I need your advice, not necessarily reassurance, but more advice? My HOCD is throwing random “proof” I did/ saw as a child in my face, which back then had no meaning in my life and I continued to live a perfectly heterosexual life. I’ve educated myself about arousal non concordance / child’s play, but it still doesn’t remove the HOCD. I’ve read therapists great explanations on how it’s not a sexuality issue, BUT ITS AN OCD BRAIN ISSUE. So basically I’ve been straight and i will die as straight. But my ocd is still continuing with the intrusive thoughts/flashbacks. I’ve had some moments where I haven’t done as many compulsions and had less anxiety but still had those damn thoughts and I DO NOT want those damn thoughts. I have so much proof and factual/logical explanations but HOCD is still continuing to thrive. I absolutely hate this and I feel so alone. I wish there was a reset button cause I don’t want these thoughts to happen. I want a man and I stand by that. How do y’all deal with these situations? Cause sitting with the thoughts is clearly not helping.
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Need some advice please. I'm trying to fix my social anxiety, self esteem and confidence but ocd infests itself and makes me I had all these issues because I my ocd was true all along. For example, Im extremely uptight/awkward around people and have a fear of being judged, laughed at or seen through, fear of not being liked etc. One cause of this I read is it's because i suppressed my real self/feelings and pretended to put on a fake mask to be liked by others/fit in and now that im older that mask is breaking and causing me disconnect from my real self. My hocd inserts itself and makes me feel because I was gay all along without knowing it is why it happened. It genuinely feels like that's the case but then I feel dreaded and depressed because it feels so real I'm ready to accept that scenario. But back then I didnt think I could have been gay or anything. Im not sure how to handle this difficulty. Please any advice?
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Hello everyone, I just wanted to share a part of my journey that I’m struggling with right now. I’ve been diagnosed with ocd and while this is not my first subtype, ROCD and so ocd have definitely been the ones I’ve been struggling with the most. For context I have a boyfriend who I love very much and am terrified of loosing. That’s probably what ocd latched onto. The so-ocd especially is tricky because I’ve come to acknowledge that I am bisexual. Don’t worry I didn’t “discover” this through ocd, I’ve always known and it’s been in the back of my mind way before ocd, I had just never really directly acknowledged it because romantically I just always leaned towards men. The thing my ocd latched onto is “what if you are actually a lesbian and don’t know it yet and will have to leave your partner or are lying to your partner or end up leading him on” The thing is, I don’t have much experience with women except kissing my female best friend once, which didn’t feel special or made me have romantic feelings for her. I’ve always seeked men more actively than women and didn’t feel like I was gonna miss out if I get into a serious relationship with a man before having had more experience. I just know that I can be sexually attracted to women as well. But now that I’m in this beautiful relationship I’m terrified of getting it wrong or having missed something about myself or being scared that I’m actually a lesbian and have been lying to myself all along. I’m not seeking reassurance, just wanting to share and maybe someone else is going through something similar? If so I’d be so grateful to know I’m not alone. I love my boyfriend dearly and i really hope we will work out in the long run.
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