I just want this to be HOCD so badly 😭😭 I don’t ever wanna be what my intrusive thoughts tell me that I am 😭😭😭

not to reassure, but ocd thoughts are ego-dystonic

Idk why it’s making it feel so real... intrusive thoughts are tough on their own... but intrusive feelings and groinals are making it 10 times worse...

@POCD/RealEventOCD thats what ocd does, it makes your whole reality distorted and messed up. it really does feel real, i know. but erp will help a lot! more you do it, more you will see how those thoughts make no sense. at least thats how it was for me

@squishybat I’m never in the mood to have sex which this is my first sexual partner and I have never been very sexual in the first place but this makes me like I’m just a lesbian in denial

@Tan??? i think its just all the numbness from ocd. it can be very exhausting. i hope you feel better soon! i believe in all of you❤

@squishybat Can you tell me what it feels like to be attracted to someone

@Tan??? i think this might be reassurance question, so i think its not too wise of me if i tell you. trust me, youll feel much better if you sit now with these uncomfy feelings. you know how they say, short term pain for long term gain. trust me, youll feel much better after sitting with it. it will be hard at beginning, but if you want to recover you will have to do this