I just want this to be HOCD so badly 😭😭 I don’t ever wanna be what my intrusive thoughts tell me that I am 😭😭😭

Idk why it’s making it feel so real... intrusive thoughts are tough on their own... but intrusive feelings and groinals are making it 10 times worse...

@squishybat I’m never in the mood to have sex which this is my first sexual partner and I have never been very sexual in the first place but this makes me like I’m just a lesbian in denial

@squishybat Can you tell me what it feels like to be attracted to someone

@squishybat What about the intrusive feelings and groinals? Idk what to do... like I love fantasizing, specifically about a woman I’m attracted to in any situation... like for example I’m watching a dude play a video game and I’m imagining a woman I’m attracted to playing the game instead and all of a sudden I had sweet feelings and I hope it’s for the woman I was imagining about because my intrusive thoughts are making me think I had feelings for the dude