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Oh my gosh I feel exactly the same way. For the most part this theme doesn’t bother me much anymore, however I feel like I don’t feel anything anymore as I’m always too focused on what I should/ shouldn’t be feeling- now I just feel emotionless :/
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I’m so glad I’m not alone but I am sorry to know we’re both experiencing the same pain. I’m the same, I always think about the way I should just feel instead of just letting myself be
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The pandemic is what helped me have a really bad relapse. I also over analyze how I feel when my husband and I have sex. I try to just let them come and go, but I feel they do interfere a bit. I try to tell myself that the problem is that I believe that sex should feel a certain way. However, sex doesn't always feel passionate and mind-blowing. It also takes a bit more effort to have that passion the longer you are with someone. There is also more to a relationship than sex. While it is nice, it isn't everything. That is just my take, from someone who has rocd too
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Yeah you’re right I try telling myself the same , but it’s one thing for me to know and anther for me to understand. I love my partner so much and I just ache for the days where we could get it on without worrying about a what if
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@PinkLotus I understand. I would say " this sucks, it isn't ideal , I really miss sex before ocd but i can still be with my partner despite the thoughts.
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@PinkLotus Easier said than done but I try lol
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@Anonymous Yeah that’s what I do too , I hope one day we can return to some level of normalcy
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I have had those thoughts and feelings too. Instead of trying to focus or expect intimate feelings, have you tried telling yourself "I expect to feel anxiety right now and that is okay to be feeling?" It helps me a lot in those situations.
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I have not, but I should ! I keep expecting my anxiety to go away just because I want it to
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@PinkLotus I totally get that. I struggle with that desire too sometimes. Our anxiety will come and go just like all other emotions. I try to recognize mine and give it less power by not fearing my fear.
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Ive been struggling with the same and overanalysing everything. It really sucks, the more you think about it the worse it gets too :( im sorry youre going through this too and i really hope things get better soon
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Likewise I’m sorry to hear you’re struggling with the same but at least you’re not alone. Hoping things get better frinyoub
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@PinkLotus For you lol*
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I’m struggling with something I’m afraid to even admit out loud. I’ve been in a long-term relationship with someone I love deeply. He’s kind, safe, and emotionally close to me — and we’ve built a life together. But I keep obsessing over the fact that I don’t feel much sexual attraction anymore. Or maybe… I never truly did? At the beginning, I felt butterflies, excitement, connection — and I assumed that meant I was also attracted to him physically. But now, after reading so much and reflecting more deeply, I’m starting to wonder if I ever truly felt sexual desire in the way I was “supposed to.” Maybe my feelings were more about emotional longing, comfort, and romantic closeness — but not sexual chemistry. And now I don’t know what that means. OCD makes it so much worse. It constantly tells me: – “If you really loved him, you’d want him.” – “You’re leading him on.” – “What if you’re lying to yourself?” – “If you try to fix this and fail, you’ll have to leave.” I feel stuck between wanting to fight for this relationship — and being terrified that trying will just prove it’s hopeless. Has anyone experienced something like this? Can OCD really make you question something so deeply personal? And how do you move forward when even trying feels terrifying? Any thoughts or support would mean the world right now.
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