- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
Same here!!!!!!! It’s been the hardest months of my life
Honestly:( I literally believe that if I would’ve gotten a job during the summer then none of this would be happening. I was literally home all the time because of summer school. What was the intrusive thought that caused you to spiral?
@Whyyocd If you don’t mind me asking!
@Whyyocd I also think it was stress cause I had just started a new job! And the intrusive thought came when I was being intimate with my partner and then just spiraled from there
@LoverGirl Yeah I definitely think stress has a lot to do with a theme starting or spiking.
Yea it’s so hard because I’ve been with my bf for 8 years and he’s the one I want to marry but all of this makes me doubt everything and I hate it and I just don’t know if I’ll ever get my relationship back and feel like how I did before
Omg 🥺 I’m so sorry 🥺 I really hope you do! I feel the same. I have a boyfriend who I thought was going to be the one but after this theme it’s made me doubt everything as well. I hope we all can get back to the place we were before 🥺
@Whyyocd I’m sorry you’re also going through this. It’s nice to know that I’m not alone. I also hope that we can get that back
I’m asking myself the same thing :(
It’s so hard
@LoverGirl It really is :( did your relationship ocd come before or after SOOCD?
@Whyyocd My first intrusive thought was SOOCD and then I think it triggered ROCD. But it’s so annoying when I think I’m doing good and a theme no longer bothers me it switches back to the other theme. And back and forth.
@LoverGirl Literally same 😞 I’m not even sure if I have ROCD. My main theme that is literally torturing me is SOOCD. All I know is I never had questions about my relationship until this theme came :(
@Whyyocd Yea I really struggle with soocd. I just wish things were how they used to be
@LoverGirl Me too :(
How long have you been dealing with this?
Since the beginning of June. What about you?
At this point I think I’m just tired. Took me a massive amount of strength to even type this. I’ve never had it this bad with anxiety depression and OCD. Firstly, how do you guys handle the trauma that comes with OCD. I recently realized Ive traumatized by own mind. I think this contributes to depression. Also, the thoughts frequency have gotten so high. It just literally jams its self in my brain. Before, I had some sort of control (at least a grip) but this days it’s so hard to try to get a grip. The unwanted feelings too? Omg, reactions that I literally can’t stand plagues me. My mind turns almost everything sexual. It’s crazy 🙃 Then the anxietyyyyyy! Wheew. I’m like a walking anxiety attack, my heart is always beating fast and it’s so painful. Working is so hard because I can’t get a grip, I feel so broken and I don’t think anyone can relate to this. I don’t know what I can do to help. Then the pressure in my head (that causes headache sometimes), sometimes I genuinely think I have a tumor! I’m pregnant so that makes it sadder, makes me wonder what kind of mother this beautiful soul is coming out here to meet. I don’t want to be a sad mother, and I cry more when I realize my child can feel what I feel rn in my belly😔. Another thing, the moment I don’t wanna do something, doesn’t even have to be anything bad. That’s when it feels my mind wants to force me to do it. It’s a whole lot and I’m just holding on to Jesus to help me out. At least he’s here so that’s comforting.
Can someone please tell me at what point did you finally accept that it’s OCD? When did the ERP click for you? When did you just stop buying into the lies of OCD and finally let go? Like what does it take. It’s been 2 years of this for me and I’m in ERP currently and it’s just not clicking 😣 is it just me???
Everything is building up and I don’t see a way out.
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