I’ve lost the intense anxiety, but still have the thoughts/ feelings and urges that used to cause the anxiety. It’s made it all just feel so real and almost like I want it to be true. I just feel so in denial… I was happy before this and content with my life and the constant ruminating has made me question my entire life up to this point. All the things I thought I wanted seem like I’m not allowed them now, I feel guilty staying with my partner. I can’t even feel if I love them anymore? Yet every now and then, quite rare these days. I have these moments when I’m with her where the whole world just stops and I feel normal again. But they only last a few seconds and then I remember everything my mind has said to me thus far.