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BradOCD
11d ago
  • Relationship OCD
  • Sexual Orientation OCD

I’ve lost the intense anxiety, but still have the thoughts/ feelings and urges that used to cause the anxiety. It’s made it all just feel so real and almost like I want it to be true. I just feel so in denial… I was happy before this and content with my life and the constant ruminating has made me question my entire life up to this point. All the things I thought I wanted seem like I’m not allowed them now, I feel guilty staying with my partner. I can’t even feel if I love them anymore? Yet every now and then, quite rare these days. I have these moments when I’m with her where the whole world just stops and I feel normal again. But they only last a few seconds and then I remember everything my mind has said to me thus far.

Jeanie12
11d ago
This happens to me also. I’m craving normalcy. I was head over heels in love before the initial thought came out if no where. Now things I knew I wanted without a doubt seen impossible. I get confused when people say “nothing is certain.” Because I did KNOW before the thoughts…
BradOCD
11d ago
YES SAME! I was so sure I knew! And now the OCD makes me look back and question whether I actually ever was and have spent my life in denial. But I wasn’t… I felt amazing like I seriously think it was things being too good that brought this all on
Jeanie12
11d ago
That’s what’s so he’s for me also. I VIVIDLY remember how I felt. It’s so confusing and devastating. I just want it all back 😞