i just had the weirdest experience with my intrusive thoughts and need to share. if anyone has some advice or have experienced something similar a reply is much appreciated. i don't wanna feel alone or unheard right now. i haven't been diagnosed with OCD, but i'm currently in the process of reaching out to a psychiatrist it's just been hard. i've had to miss my first appointment twice now because of mistaken dates and medical reasons. i'm dealing with a lot of stress so these intrusive thoughts don't help my growing anxiety. anyway i should get to the point. i don't remember the events that took place in my dream but towards the end is when it started to get weird. i don't remember ever seeing/hearing anything triggering but i was filled with panic and dread. i started performing mental compulsion in my dream which isn't a rare occurrence. sometimes if a dream of mine is to disturbing i become kind of aware and am able to perform my mental compulsion in my sleep. saying it out loud kinda sounds stupid. it sounds like i'm talking about a super powers. afterwards i awoke, kinda, it was more like a half awake state, but i remember what happened with my compulsions in my dream. i still don't remember what the dream was about then and even now. it almost sent me into a spiral but with my tired brain i was able to reassure myself enough that it was just a dream to fall back asleep. so i continued sleeping until the thoughts struck up again this time in the form of agreeing to something. i didn't know what i had agreed to at first but once i did the intrsuive thought appeared and i freaked out to what i had just agreed to. i started denying the thoughts and trying to reassure myself and that's how my dream kinda went on just my brain performing the same repetitive phrases i use to reassure myself. what finally happened that freaked me out is i remember the feeling of thrusting my hips. i was afraid i felt geniune arousal from my dreams. even though there was nothing triggering i was just so afraid of being aroused by the concept of my intrusive thoughts. when i finally decided to wake up realizing i wouldn't sleep anymore tonight i came on here and started typing this message out by now i'm pretty sure my intrusive thoughts have subsided a bit. i still want to share this experience though because it's comforting to hear from others who suffer from the same thoughts. i'm sorry for being very vague about all this. it was a vgaue dream and discussing of my intrusive thoughts is often triggering for me so i tried to speak about it as little as possible.