⚠ Trigger Warning ⚠ Near fatal car accident 70 something days ago. Medical Coma. 8 bags donated blood. In ICU for 30 days. I was given painkillers in ICU after severe car accident and felt sexually turned on. For me, there was sort of a BDSM thing to the submission I was in. That the Doctors medication was able to Dominate me, and I submitted to it. After a week the effect wore off, and being I once 20 years ago was (mis)diagnosed Bipolar/OCD, and have been self medicating with legal over counter herbal supplements that never really work, thought it would be a good idea to see a psychiatrist. Am not addicted to the pain medication, am voluntarily weaning myself off of it. With 3 refills left I just don't want pain killers. Not in pain, don't need them. I do however, find myself wanting to be prescribed, by an MD or Psychiatrist, psychiatric medication. Sometimes before going to bed, I fantasize having a lobotomy, from a hot female Psychiatrist. But losing awareness sort of, kills the idea because I'd forget the experience. Shock Therapy is kind of sexy. As a breadwinner, want to have something serious but not so over the top where I couldn't go to work. Still, the submission that goes along with taking psychiatric medication is a real turn on. If it was slowly killing brain cells, all the better. Am going to the neurologist next month for short term memory-loss check up because the accident only happened about 2 and a half months ago. This time last month, I was in a Rehabilitation Facility, learning to stand again and use a walker. Have multiple compound fractures that are healing. Nearly blind in right eye from shattered glass. I have metal rods and bolts aka hardware, in both arms and entire right leg. Lost a lot of blood from head wound, the brain may be damaged. The neurologist I am going to see, is black. I have even thought of, making a remark about her skin color just so to punish me, she'd give me some strong medication. But that's not fair to her. Here's WHY IM TELLING YOU THIS.. It's a question really. Is anyone else turned on by the thought of submitting to psychiatric medications and if so, does this kink have a name? Appreciated

Nica

Date posted: 3y

Look into Fetlife.

FrankieTF79

Date posted: 3y

Went to YouTube to see what FetLife is. Am happy for them and wish Fets the best. However, don't want to meet anyone from the Internet, at all. It may even be an issue that can be corrected with copius amounts of therapy. What do they call that, ERT?! Rather than just being a BDSM kink, thought maybe there's a reason for it, a name for it.... Thnx

Nica

Date posted: 3y

@FrankieTF79 You don’t have to meet anyone, anywhere. You don’t need to post photos or anything like that. If you want to find out about your possible kink, then that’s where to go if you don’t want to go to a therapist. You could also try looking into a sex therapist in your area. If they can’t help you, they’ll refer you to someone they know who can.

FrankieTF79

Date posted: 3y

@Nica Ironically enough, could a Psychiatrist objectively treat this, or would they be tempted to overdo it a bit, and I would be, compelled or driven, to just go along with it?!

Nica

Date posted: 3y

@FrankieTF79 A psychiatrist would prescribe you medication. You should look into therapy first.

FrankieTF79

Date posted: 3y

@Nica Therapy is better, no argument here.. The fetish, is still there, so being medicated, is really blissfully tempting. Am going to come clean Nov 12 with the Neurologist and post what happens, here.

3Catsandadog

Date posted: 3y

This sounds like a fetish exacerbated by OCD. There’s nothing wrong with having a fetish, just make sure you don’t end up harming yourself in the process. Perhaps you could have your partner tie you up and give you something that looks like a pill but isn’t (like a tic tac) and role play if you’d like. Submission is a very common fantasy, and there’s no shame in having one

FrankieTF79

Date posted: 3y

Honest Question: How is the Fetish exacerbated by OCD? Am really trying to understand this.

3Catsandadog

Date posted: 3y

@FrankieTF79 OCD can target your interests, your fears, etc. so it could be that you have the fetish but the ocd makes you think about it so often and find ways to fulfill it

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Date posted: 3y

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FrankieTF79

Date posted: 3y

Oh yeah? Do feel encouraged to elaborate.

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